GOOD EVENING.~ I HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE HAVING A BETTER DAY THAN I HAVE HAD..
I HAVE MORE HEALTH ISSUES.. WELL ACTUALLY THEY'RE THE SAME, THEY'VE JUST GOTTEN WORSE.. I'M SUPPOSED TO HAVE SURGERY ON WEDNESDAY~ I KNOW ALL OF THESE THINGS HAVE HIT ME FOR GOOD REASON, I LOOK AT THEM ALL AS TESTS..
TESTS THAT WILL MAKE ME CONTINUE ALONG THE PATH THE GREAT SPIRIT & CREATOR HAS BLESSED 'ME' WITH!! I KNOW I CAN GET THROUGH THIS..
HE'S NEVER EVER LET ME DOWN, & I DON'T BELIEVE HE'LL START 'NOW' <3
THE 'HIGHER POWER' IS ALWAYS IN CONTROL.. NO MATTER WHAT! ~ I BELIEVE WHATEVER HAPPENS IS MEANT TO HAPPEN <3 I'M SURE I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO BELIEVES THIS WAY~! I WILL BE ON N OFF HERE AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS UNTIL I GO INTO THE HOSPITAL.. & EVEN THEN, THEY HAVE SOME AWESOME BIG BIG SCREEN TV'S THAT ALREADY HAVE INTERNET HOOK UP IN IT.. IT'S REALLY COOL ;) I KNOW THAT THIS WILL TURN OUT FINE.. BUT ENOUGH ABOUT 'ME' & MY HEALTH ISSUES.. I CAME HERE TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT SOMETHING (I CONSIDER) MUCH MORE IMPORTANT!! ~ I'M PRAYING THAT MY WORDS WILL REACH NOT ONLY YOUR EARS BUT YOUR HEARTS! .. THERE'S ANOTHER MAJOR HEALTH ISSUE GOING ON RIGHT NOW.. NORMALLY 'I' (ESPECIALLY) AM A VERY PRIVATE PERSON.. FOR 'ME' TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS IS TOTALLY OUT OF MY CHARACTER!! AS YOU READ ON, THOSE OF YOU WHO KNOW ME WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT 'I' MEAN!!..~
LIKE I SAY, THERE'S ANOTHER HEALTH ISSUES THAT HAS HIT MY FAMILY.. (MY EXTENDED FAMILY).. I'D LIKE TO ASK YOUR PRAYERS FOR THIS ONE! <3 ..
MY 'MOM'.. HAS BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER.. IT'S VERY ADVANCED..& OF COURSE WE'RE ALL VERY WORRIED.. I KNOW THIS IS A SERIOUSLY EVIL DISEASE! . I, TOO, HAVE SOME SERIOUS EVIL DISEASES ATTACKING MYSELF, THAT ARE ALSO VERY 'TERMINAL' ACCORDING TO SCIENCE, HOWEVER, I STILL WON'T ALLOW MYSELF TO BELIEVE THAT ANOTHER HUMAN IS CAPABLE OD TELLING 'ME' TO 'DIE'!! IT'S JUST THE WAY 'I' BELIEVE, BUT, MY MUM, ..SHE'S A "STRONG" WOMAN, BUT, ..SHE'S '82yrs OLD".. I'VE TRIED TO TALK TO HER IN THE WAY 'I' BELIEVE, BUT I'VE '4' SISTERS WHO BELIEVE 'DIFFERENTLY'... THE '2' THAT ARE WITH MY MOTHER ARE MY YOUNGER & THE ONE RIGHT ABOVE ME IN AGE... WE '3' ARE ALL FROM MY MOM'S CURRENT HUSBAND.. MY MOM ALSO HAS '2' OLDER DAUGHTERS FROM A PREVIOUS MARRIAGE~
THE '2' OLDER SISTERS WERE VERY YOUNG WHEN MY MOM MARRIED 'MY' DAD.. HE TRIED TO RAISE THEM AS HIS OWN, BUT IT DIDN'T WORK OUT AS GREAT AS IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN!! ..THE OLDER ONE'S WERE ABLE TO SEE, VISIT & EVEN LIVE WITH THEIR REAL DAD ... ESPECIALLY, ONCE 'MY' DADS '3' DAUGHTERS CAME ALONG! EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE MY HALF-SISTERS, ..'I' NEVER ONCE FELT LIKE THEY WERE ANYTHING OTHER THAN MY 'REAL SISTERS'.. JUST LIKE THE OTHER '2' FROM MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER.. BUT THIS IS NOT SO OF THE OTHER '2' SISTERS FROM 'MY' DAD.. FOR SOME REASON, THOSE '2' ALWAYS SAID THE OLDER '2' WERE NOT OUR REAL SISTERS..THAT THEY DON'T FEEL 'FOR THEM' AS THEY DO FOR THE '3' OF US FROM MY DAD.. I NEVER COULD UNDERSTAND THIS, NOR WHERE THESE FEELINGS CAME FROM... :/ THE '2' OLDER ONE'S HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE & I FEEL THE SAME LOVE FOR THEM AS I DO FOR THE OTHER '2'.. NOT ANY DIFFERENCE AT ALL.. SO AS I CONTINUE ON WITH THIS.. PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND.. I HONESTLY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY OWN FAMILY~! THEY ARE 'MY' SISTERS! JUST LIKE THE OTHER '2', WE ARE 'ALL' '5' MY MOTHER'S REAL DAUGHTERS, NO MATTER HOW YA CUT N DRY IT.. NO DIFFERENCE THERE.. WE ALL COME FROM THE SAME MOM~ THIS IS WHERE THE TROUBLE COMES IN & IT'S ACTUALLY PRETTY SAD.. THE '2' SISTERS OF MY DAD'S ARE IN TOTAL CONTROL OF THE LIVES OF OUR PARENTS.. FINANCIALLY & MEDICALLY...& IN ANY OTHER WAY AS WELL.. CONSIDERING BOTH PARENTS ARE OF SOUND MIND, I DON'T KNOW JUST HOW THE YOUNGER SISTER GAINED SO MUCH CONTROL BUT SHE HAS.. UNDER NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES.. 'I' PERSONALLY DON'T GIVE A CARE ~ BUT.. SHE IS DOING SOMETHING THAT 'I' CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE NOR THOUGHT THE YOUNGER ONE WAS TRULY THAT HATEFUL THAT SHE COULD HONESTLY CARRY OUT SOMETHING LIKE THIS BUT SHE IS.. SHE & MY OTHER SISTER ARE CHOOSING 'NOW' TO 'SHOW' THE OLDER ONES EXACTLY HOW THEY FEEL TOWARD THEM...THEY'RE NOT ALLOWING THE ELDER SISTERS TO SPEAK TO MY MOM WITHOUT REQUIRING TO KNOW "WHAT" IT'S CONCERNING & 'THEY'RE' NOT GIVING THE OLDER ONES ANY INFORMATION REGARDING OUR MOTHER'S HEALTH~!. MY OLDER SISTERS ARE 'NOT' FINANCIALLY STABLE.. THEY'RE LIVES ARE DIFFERENT.. THEY WANT TO VISIT MY MOTHER BEFORE SHE PASSES AWAY ..(& FROM THE LOOKS OF THINGS, IT DOESN'T SEEM TO BE FAR OFF AT ALL).. "THOSE '2' OLDER SISTERS HAVE ALREADY LOST THEIR 'REAL' FATHER A FEW YEARS AGO..SO THEY ALREADY KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO LOSE A PARENT '.. SO OUR MOM IS THE LAST ONE.. (FOR THEM) .. I FEEL VERY SAD FOR THEM..AS I SAID, 'I' SEE NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN 'THEM' AS MY SISTERS THAN I DO THE ONE'S FROM 'MY' BIOLOGICAL FATHER.. WE WERE ALL RAISED IN THE SAME HOUSE.. BY THE SAME PARENTS, TAUGHT THE SAME LESSONS.. SOME OF US WENT THROUGH ALOT MORE 'PAIN & SUFFERING' THAN THE OTHERS.. BUT I GUESS 'THAT' WAS JUST THE LUCK OF THE DRAW, HUH?? .. SADLY THE '2' OLDER ONES ARE HAVING SOME FINANCIAL DIFFICULTIES GETTING "TO OUR MOM", TO SEE HER.. THEY'RE TERRIFIED THEY WON'T GET THERE IN TIME.. I RECENTLY FOUND OUT THAT THE OTHER '2' SISTERS ARE ACTUALLY THREATENING THE '2' OLDER ONES OF REPORTING THEM FOR (GET THIS) ELDERLY ABUSE BECAUSE .. THEY'RE NEEDING 'HELP IN GETTING THERE..& MY PARENTS "OFFERED" TO HELP THEM.. MY PARENTS CAN AFFORD IT.. js .. BUT, THE '2' SISTER'S THAT ARE THERE WITH MY PARENT'S HAVE THREATENED & MADE THEMSELVES VERY CLEAR THAT 'IF' THE OLDER SISTERS TAKE THE "HELP' OFFERED BY MY PARENT'S.. THEN THEY'LL BE REPORTED FOR ELDERLY ABUSE~!!! HOW IS THAT ELDERLY ABUSE?? ESPECIALLY SINCE MY PARENTS BOTH HAVE VERY SOUND MINDS & "IT'S THEIR MONEY!"?? BUT THE YOUNGEST SISTER THINKS SHE IS DOING HER 'JOB' BY STOPPING MY PARENTS! ..IN 'MY; OPINION, I THINK THAT MY PARENT'S MADE A HUGE MISTAKE PUTTING THEIR LIVES IN THE HANDS OF THE OTHER '2' SISTERS ..BUT.. AS I SAID.. I'M NOT INVOLVED WITH THOSE '2' SISTERS.. .. MY PARENT'S ARE UNABLE TO HELP THE OLDER SISTER'S FINANCIALLY..BECAUSE THE OTHER '2' SISTERS (WHO ARE WELL OFF) SAY "NO!!" TRULY SAD WHEN THEY CAN'T EVEN MAKE THEIR OWN DECISIONS WITHOUT THE OTHER '2' STEPPIN IN & (LIKE I SAY, BECAUSE 'THEY' DON'T SEE THE '2' OLDER ONES AS THEIR TRUE SISTERS.. ) SAYING AN ABSOLUTE 'NO' TO MY OLDER SISTERS... AS WELL AS THREATENING TO REPORT THEM FOR ELDERLY ABUSE.. I'M SAYING THIS HERE.. SO THAT "MAYBE" MY PARENTS WILL FIND OUT WHAT THE OTHER '2' SISTERS ARE DOING "BEHIND MY PARENT'S BACK!! I KNOW THIS IS TRUE, BECAUSE 'I' JUST SPOKE WITH MY DAD AS WELL AS MY MOTHER!! .. I'M PERSONALLY THE BLACK SHEEP OF THE FAMILY.. (AS YOU CAN TELL) .. WHAT MY SISTERS FROM MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER HAVE TO SAY, DOESN'T HAVE ANY AFFECT ON 'ME!!' .. I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THEM.. SAD THAT OUR FAMILY HAS TURNED INTO THIS.. BUT OURS IS NOT THE ONLY FAMILY IT'S HAPPENING TO.. I HAVE SAID THIS BECAUSE .. MY '2' OLDER SISTERS WANT DESPERATELY TO "SEE" THEIR MOTHER BEFORE THE LORD TAKES HER HOME, THEY'VE LOST THEIR DAD.. THEY SHOULD BE ALLOWED TO SEE THEIR MOM & HUG HER & TELL HER THEY LOVE HER.. BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.. I BELIEVE.. 'IF' YOU'RE IN THE POSITION TO HELP OTHERS.. (ESPECIALLY YOUR OWN FAMILY) THEN YOU SHOULD.. THOSE '2' SISTERS SHOULD BE MAKING AN EFFORT TO 'HELP' THE OLDER ONES...NOT SIT BACK ON A POWER TRIP, HOLDING MY PARENTS CAPTIVE.. & ACTUALLY REFUSING TO OFFER ANY TYPE OF HELP WHATSOEVER TO THE ELDER ONES... IN MY OPINION... "WHO'S ABUSING WHO" IN THIS SITUATION??? SEEMS TO ME, MY PARENT'S SHOULD BE ABLE TO HELP WHOMEVER THEY WANT .. CORRECT?? THEY ARE "BOTH" STILL VERY 'WITH IT' MENTALLY... & MY POOR MOM HAS ASKED ALL OF US DAUGHTERS TO GO TO HER... SHE WANTS ALL '5' DAUGHTERS WITH HER ONCE MORE BEFORE SHE IS CALLED HOME.. 'I' HAVE NOT ASKED FOR , NOR DO 'I' NEED THEIR HELP.. HOWEVER THEY HAVE OFFERED.. BUT THEY WILL MAKE THE SAME THREATS TO ME IF 'I' WERE IN A POSITION WHERE I NEEDED THEIR HELP.. LIKE I SAY, I'M THE BLACK SHEEP!! I DON'T MIND EITHER.. I AM VERY THANKFUL & BLESSED 'I' CAME OUT THE WAY I HAVE... I AM THE MIDDLE ONE OF MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER.. I SEE NO DIFFERENCE IN 'ALL 5' SISTERS.. I DO HOWEVER SEE THAT .. THE '2' THAT ARE IN CONTROL OF MY PARENTS HAVE CHANGED OVER THE YEARS.. I JUST FEEL SAD FOR THEM.. & WANT TO REMIND THEM.. GOD IS WATCHING YOU.. & KARMA WILL PAY YOU A VISIT FOR ALL THAT YOU ARE DOING NOW AS WELL AS FOR THE TERRIBLY CRUEL THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE PAST.. I'M THANKFUL GOD'S WITH ME.. I'M THE ONLY DAUGHTER THAT CAN ACTUALLY "EMPATHIZE" WITH MY MOTHER.. IN THE DISEASE & ILLNESS PROCESSES~. I AM SO SO THANKFUL I AM AROUND MY KIDS DURING THESE PAINFUL & TERRIFYING TIMES.. I KNOW WHAT MY MOM IS GOING THROUGH.. I WANT TO SEE MY MOM TOO & PROBABLY WILL.. NONE OF THEM WILL BE ABLE TO 'STOP' ME.. IT'S JUST SO SAD THEY'RE HURTING MY OLDER SISTERS IN SUCH A CRUEL.. EVEN EVIL WAY!!
MY '2' OLDER SISTERS HAVE MADE A "GO FUND ME" PAGE ASKING FOR "HELP" ..(OF COURSE 'I' WILL BE HELPING WHAT 'I' CAN ..AS WELL AS MY OWN KIDS WILL BE ALSO)
I'M HAVING A HARD TIME WITH THIS.. CONSIDERING IT'S "MY" FAMILY.. BUT I WANTED TO REMIND ALL OF YOU .. 'MY' FRIENDS OUT THERE.. THAT THESE '2' PARENTS ARE THE "MUSICIANS" WHO STARTED THE MUSIC IN MY LIFE.. THESE ARE 'MY' PARENTS WHO GAVE 'ME' THE GIFT OF MUSIC.. THAT 'I' PASS ON DAILY... I CAN'T RELATE TO THE OTHER '2' SISTERS.. HONESTLY, I'VE SEEN THEM BOTH BE MEAN, HATEFUL.. BUT "THIS"?? I DIDN'T THINK NOR WOULD I HAVE EVER BELIEVED THAT ANY OF MY SISTERS WERE CAPABLE OF SUCH CRUELTY... 'EVIL' EVEN~!. 'THIS' IS WHAT "THE LOVE OF MONEY DOES!! ~ IT SAYS IT PLAINLY IN THE "BIBLE"..."FOR THE LOVE OF MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL".. (Too MANY THINK THAT SAYS THAT 'MOENY' IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL, IT DOES NOT, IT'S THE "LOVE OF MONEY" THAT'S THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL") .. 1st TIMOTHY chapter '6:10' ... I'VE KNOWN THIS VERSE SO WELL GROWING UP..
I JUST NEVER WOULD HAVE "BELIEVED" IT 'COULD' HAVE EVEN HAPPENED IN 'MY' FAMILY~!!! WE GREW UP A VERY LOVING FAMILY.. BUT NOW... LIKE I SAID, I LOVE THEM ALL, BUT I'M THE BLACK SHEEP....IT'S SAD, BUT BECAUSE OF ALL THE THINGS 'IVE' EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE.. HAS CAUSE ALOT OF JEALOUSY.. & RESENTMENT FROM THE SISTERS AGAINST ME.. I CAN'T HELP THE PLAN & THE PATH THE LORD SET BEFORE 'ME' TO FOLLOW.. I'VE BEEN THROUGH SO SO SO MUCH.. BAD AS WELL AS GOOD.. & I'M THANKFUL FOR IT ALL.... I'M ALSO THE ONLY ONE OF THE '3' SISTERS WHO HAS BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH NOT 'ONE' BUT SEVERAL TERMINAL DISEASES ~
I WON'T DWELL ON IT, I'M NOT ASKING FOR PITY, ALL I WANT TO SHARE IN REGARDS TO THAT IS... I CHERISH EVERY SINGLE DAY I'M GIVEN WITH MY KIDS.. & MY VERY SPECIAL FAMILY & FRIENDS.. I'M THANKFUL HE HAS ALLOWED ME TO KNOW HIM & HIS WORD(S) .. TO SEE MY OLDER SISTER'S HURT THIS WAY.. IS SO PAINFUL.. I WOULD STEP IN & TAKE THEIR PAIN AWAY AT ANY MOMENT, IF IT WERE POSSIBLE~!
PLEASE READ THEIR PAGE.. PLEASE TAKE THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND THE 'BACK-SIDE' TO THEIR STORY ... 'I'M' COMING OUT HERE TO VALIDATE THAT ... THEIR "PAGE" IS LEGIT... IT'S REAL.. IT'S DEFINITELY TRUE~!!! ..
'IF' THERE'S ANY WAY YOU CAN HELP THEM... PLEASE DO... IF NOT.. WE ALL APPRECIATE YOUR PRAYERS... I KNOW ALL 'MY' FRIENDS ARE GOOD PEOPLE.. I PRAY THAT YOU SEARCH YOUR HEARTS & DO WHATEVER THE GREAT SPIRIT GUIDES YOU TO DO... THESE ARE 'MY' OLDER SISTERS... I CAN PROMISE YOU, THEY WOULD "NEVER EVER" COME OUT & DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS UNLESS IT WASN'T DESPERATELY NEEDED...
I LOVE MY SISTERS.. & EVEN THOUGH 'I'M' TOO ILL TO TRAVEL MYSELF AT THIS TIME.. I'M HOLDING FAST TO MY FAITH THAT OUR CREATOR WILL ALLOW ME TO SEE MY MOM, AS WELL AS 'SHE SEE ME'..(NO ONE KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS.. IT COULD VERY WELL BE 'ME' WHO'S CALLED HOME FIRST.. WE KNOW NOT WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS.. BUT NO MATTER WHAT, THIS IS LOOKING MORE & MORE (SADLY) AS IT WILL BE THEM SEEING OUR MOM FOR THE 'LAST TIME'!
THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO ME.. I KNOW MY SISTERS WILL 'NOT' BE HAPPY THAT 'I'VE' COME FORWARD & SAID THE TRUTH... BUT MY OLDER SISTERS HAVE THE RIGHT TO SEE OUR MOM.. & THEY DESERVE THE ENTIRE TRUTH BE TOLD SO PEOPLE WILL TAKE THEM & THEIR CAUSE SERIOUSLY... THEY WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO TELL THE 'TRUTH' ..NOT THE WHOLE TRUTH, THEY WOULDN'T WANT ALL OF YOU OUT THERE TO 'SEE' MY OTHER SISTERS FOR WHO THEY ARE AND FOR WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO CAUSE THE OLDER ONES TO ACTUALLY HAVE TO ASK FOR HELP LIKE THIS...
I KNOW THEY WILL GET UPSET WITH 'ME' FOR SPEAKING THE TRUTH..BUT.. HEY,
THEY DON'T CLAIM 'ME' ANYWAY... I'M ALSO VERY ILL.. &.. I LOVE MY OLDER SISTERS AS WELL AS MY MOM VERY VERY MUCH... SO.. WHAT DO 'I' HAVE TO LOSE?? .. THEY, THE OLDER ONE'S ARE RISKING LOSING THEIR ONLY LIVING TRUE PARENT ..AS WELL AS THEIR DIGNITY... I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH TOO SEE THEM HURTING LIKE THIS...
"I'M SORRY MY DEAR SISTERS... BUT YOU BOTH KNOW YOUR "SCORPIO" LITTLE SISTER.... IT'S NOT IN MY NATURE TO JUST BY & 'WATCH' YOU GET HURT LIKE THIS!! ...
I PRAY OUR GREAT CREATOR WILL COMFORT YOUR HEARTS.. & EASE YOUR PAIN...
HE WILL PROVIDE A WAY.. HAVE FAITH & TRUST HIM...
SENDING YOU ALL MY LOVE.. & STRENGTH... YOU'LL GET THERE <3<3<3
GIVE MOM A HUGE HUG & TELL HER I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH... <3<3<3
TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE.. MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS.. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME..
I'M SO THANKFUL YOU ARE ALL THERE TO AT LEAST "LISTEN" TO ME <3 :)
THIS IS THE LINK TO THE .. 'GO FUND ME' PAGE MY SISTERS CREATED <3
AGAIN.... THANK YOU VERY MUCH <3 <3 <3
http://www.gofundme.com/h4t9r0
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