GOOD EVENING.~ I HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE HAVING A BETTER DAY THAN I HAVE HAD..
I HAVE MORE HEALTH ISSUES.. WELL ACTUALLY THEY'RE THE SAME, THEY'VE JUST GOTTEN WORSE.. I'M SUPPOSED TO HAVE SURGERY ON WEDNESDAY~ I KNOW ALL OF THESE THINGS HAVE HIT ME FOR GOOD REASON, I LOOK AT THEM ALL AS TESTS..
TESTS THAT WILL MAKE ME CONTINUE ALONG THE PATH THE GREAT SPIRIT & CREATOR HAS BLESSED 'ME' WITH!! I KNOW I CAN GET THROUGH THIS..
HE'S NEVER EVER LET ME DOWN, & I DON'T BELIEVE HE'LL START 'NOW' <3
THE 'HIGHER POWER' IS ALWAYS IN CONTROL.. NO MATTER WHAT! ~ I BELIEVE WHATEVER HAPPENS IS MEANT TO HAPPEN <3 I'M SURE I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO BELIEVES THIS WAY~! I WILL BE ON N OFF HERE AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS UNTIL I GO INTO THE HOSPITAL.. & EVEN THEN, THEY HAVE SOME AWESOME BIG BIG SCREEN TV'S THAT ALREADY HAVE INTERNET HOOK UP IN IT.. IT'S REALLY COOL ;) I KNOW THAT THIS WILL TURN OUT FINE.. BUT ENOUGH ABOUT 'ME' & MY HEALTH ISSUES.. I CAME HERE TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT SOMETHING (I CONSIDER) MUCH MORE IMPORTANT!! ~ I'M PRAYING THAT MY WORDS WILL REACH NOT ONLY YOUR EARS BUT YOUR HEARTS! .. THERE'S ANOTHER MAJOR HEALTH ISSUE GOING ON RIGHT NOW.. NORMALLY 'I' (ESPECIALLY) AM A VERY PRIVATE PERSON.. FOR 'ME' TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS IS TOTALLY OUT OF MY CHARACTER!! AS YOU READ ON, THOSE OF YOU WHO KNOW ME WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT 'I' MEAN!!..~
LIKE I SAY, THERE'S ANOTHER HEALTH ISSUES THAT HAS HIT MY FAMILY.. (MY EXTENDED FAMILY).. I'D LIKE TO ASK YOUR PRAYERS FOR THIS ONE! <3 ..
MY 'MOM'.. HAS BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER.. IT'S VERY ADVANCED..& OF COURSE WE'RE ALL VERY WORRIED.. I KNOW THIS IS A SERIOUSLY EVIL DISEASE! . I, TOO, HAVE SOME SERIOUS EVIL DISEASES ATTACKING MYSELF, THAT ARE ALSO VERY 'TERMINAL' ACCORDING TO SCIENCE, HOWEVER, I STILL WON'T ALLOW MYSELF TO BELIEVE THAT ANOTHER HUMAN IS CAPABLE OD TELLING 'ME' TO 'DIE'!! IT'S JUST THE WAY 'I' BELIEVE, BUT, MY MUM, ..SHE'S A "STRONG" WOMAN, BUT, ..SHE'S '82yrs OLD".. I'VE TRIED TO TALK TO HER IN THE WAY 'I' BELIEVE, BUT I'VE '4' SISTERS WHO BELIEVE 'DIFFERENTLY'... THE '2' THAT ARE WITH MY MOTHER ARE MY YOUNGER & THE ONE RIGHT ABOVE ME IN AGE... WE '3' ARE ALL FROM MY MOM'S CURRENT HUSBAND.. MY MOM ALSO HAS '2' OLDER DAUGHTERS FROM A PREVIOUS MARRIAGE~
THE '2' OLDER SISTERS WERE VERY YOUNG WHEN MY MOM MARRIED 'MY' DAD.. HE TRIED TO RAISE THEM AS HIS OWN, BUT IT DIDN'T WORK OUT AS GREAT AS IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN!! ..THE OLDER ONE'S WERE ABLE TO SEE, VISIT & EVEN LIVE WITH THEIR REAL DAD ... ESPECIALLY, ONCE 'MY' DADS '3' DAUGHTERS CAME ALONG! EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE MY HALF-SISTERS, ..'I' NEVER ONCE FELT LIKE THEY WERE ANYTHING OTHER THAN MY 'REAL SISTERS'.. JUST LIKE THE OTHER '2' FROM MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER.. BUT THIS IS NOT SO OF THE OTHER '2' SISTERS FROM 'MY' DAD.. FOR SOME REASON, THOSE '2' ALWAYS SAID THE OLDER '2' WERE NOT OUR REAL SISTERS..THAT THEY DON'T FEEL 'FOR THEM' AS THEY DO FOR THE '3' OF US FROM MY DAD.. I NEVER COULD UNDERSTAND THIS, NOR WHERE THESE FEELINGS CAME FROM... :/ THE '2' OLDER ONE'S HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE & I FEEL THE SAME LOVE FOR THEM AS I DO FOR THE OTHER '2'.. NOT ANY DIFFERENCE AT ALL.. SO AS I CONTINUE ON WITH THIS.. PLEASE KEEP THIS IN MIND.. I HONESTLY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY OWN FAMILY~! THEY ARE 'MY' SISTERS! JUST LIKE THE OTHER '2', WE ARE 'ALL' '5' MY MOTHER'S REAL DAUGHTERS, NO MATTER HOW YA CUT N DRY IT.. NO DIFFERENCE THERE.. WE ALL COME FROM THE SAME MOM~ THIS IS WHERE THE TROUBLE COMES IN & IT'S ACTUALLY PRETTY SAD.. THE '2' SISTERS OF MY DAD'S ARE IN TOTAL CONTROL OF THE LIVES OF OUR PARENTS.. FINANCIALLY & MEDICALLY...& IN ANY OTHER WAY AS WELL.. CONSIDERING BOTH PARENTS ARE OF SOUND MIND, I DON'T KNOW JUST HOW THE YOUNGER SISTER GAINED SO MUCH CONTROL BUT SHE HAS.. UNDER NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES.. 'I' PERSONALLY DON'T GIVE A CARE ~ BUT.. SHE IS DOING SOMETHING THAT 'I' CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE NOR THOUGHT THE YOUNGER ONE WAS TRULY THAT HATEFUL THAT SHE COULD HONESTLY CARRY OUT SOMETHING LIKE THIS BUT SHE IS.. SHE & MY OTHER SISTER ARE CHOOSING 'NOW' TO 'SHOW' THE OLDER ONES EXACTLY HOW THEY FEEL TOWARD THEM...THEY'RE NOT ALLOWING THE ELDER SISTERS TO SPEAK TO MY MOM WITHOUT REQUIRING TO KNOW "WHAT" IT'S CONCERNING & 'THEY'RE' NOT GIVING THE OLDER ONES ANY INFORMATION REGARDING OUR MOTHER'S HEALTH~!. MY OLDER SISTERS ARE 'NOT' FINANCIALLY STABLE.. THEY'RE LIVES ARE DIFFERENT.. THEY WANT TO VISIT MY MOTHER BEFORE SHE PASSES AWAY ..(& FROM THE LOOKS OF THINGS, IT DOESN'T SEEM TO BE FAR OFF AT ALL).. "THOSE '2' OLDER SISTERS HAVE ALREADY LOST THEIR 'REAL' FATHER A FEW YEARS AGO..SO THEY ALREADY KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO LOSE A PARENT '.. SO OUR MOM IS THE LAST ONE.. (FOR THEM) .. I FEEL VERY SAD FOR THEM..AS I SAID, 'I' SEE NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN 'THEM' AS MY SISTERS THAN I DO THE ONE'S FROM 'MY' BIOLOGICAL FATHER.. WE WERE ALL RAISED IN THE SAME HOUSE.. BY THE SAME PARENTS, TAUGHT THE SAME LESSONS.. SOME OF US WENT THROUGH ALOT MORE 'PAIN & SUFFERING' THAN THE OTHERS.. BUT I GUESS 'THAT' WAS JUST THE LUCK OF THE DRAW, HUH?? .. SADLY THE '2' OLDER ONES ARE HAVING SOME FINANCIAL DIFFICULTIES GETTING "TO OUR MOM", TO SEE HER.. THEY'RE TERRIFIED THEY WON'T GET THERE IN TIME.. I RECENTLY FOUND OUT THAT THE OTHER '2' SISTERS ARE ACTUALLY THREATENING THE '2' OLDER ONES OF REPORTING THEM FOR (GET THIS) ELDERLY ABUSE BECAUSE .. THEY'RE NEEDING 'HELP IN GETTING THERE..& MY PARENTS "OFFERED" TO HELP THEM.. MY PARENTS CAN AFFORD IT.. js .. BUT, THE '2' SISTER'S THAT ARE THERE WITH MY PARENT'S HAVE THREATENED & MADE THEMSELVES VERY CLEAR THAT 'IF' THE OLDER SISTERS TAKE THE "HELP' OFFERED BY MY PARENT'S.. THEN THEY'LL BE REPORTED FOR ELDERLY ABUSE~!!! HOW IS THAT ELDERLY ABUSE?? ESPECIALLY SINCE MY PARENTS BOTH HAVE VERY SOUND MINDS & "IT'S THEIR MONEY!"?? BUT THE YOUNGEST SISTER THINKS SHE IS DOING HER 'JOB' BY STOPPING MY PARENTS! ..IN 'MY; OPINION, I THINK THAT MY PARENT'S MADE A HUGE MISTAKE PUTTING THEIR LIVES IN THE HANDS OF THE OTHER '2' SISTERS ..BUT.. AS I SAID.. I'M NOT INVOLVED WITH THOSE '2' SISTERS.. .. MY PARENT'S ARE UNABLE TO HELP THE OLDER SISTER'S FINANCIALLY..BECAUSE THE OTHER '2' SISTERS (WHO ARE WELL OFF) SAY "NO!!" TRULY SAD WHEN THEY CAN'T EVEN MAKE THEIR OWN DECISIONS WITHOUT THE OTHER '2' STEPPIN IN & (LIKE I SAY, BECAUSE 'THEY' DON'T SEE THE '2' OLDER ONES AS THEIR TRUE SISTERS.. ) SAYING AN ABSOLUTE 'NO' TO MY OLDER SISTERS... AS WELL AS THREATENING TO REPORT THEM FOR ELDERLY ABUSE.. I'M SAYING THIS HERE.. SO THAT "MAYBE" MY PARENTS WILL FIND OUT WHAT THE OTHER '2' SISTERS ARE DOING "BEHIND MY PARENT'S BACK!! I KNOW THIS IS TRUE, BECAUSE 'I' JUST SPOKE WITH MY DAD AS WELL AS MY MOTHER!! .. I'M PERSONALLY THE BLACK SHEEP OF THE FAMILY.. (AS YOU CAN TELL) .. WHAT MY SISTERS FROM MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER HAVE TO SAY, DOESN'T HAVE ANY AFFECT ON 'ME!!' .. I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THEM.. SAD THAT OUR FAMILY HAS TURNED INTO THIS.. BUT OURS IS NOT THE ONLY FAMILY IT'S HAPPENING TO.. I HAVE SAID THIS BECAUSE .. MY '2' OLDER SISTERS WANT DESPERATELY TO "SEE" THEIR MOTHER BEFORE THE LORD TAKES HER HOME, THEY'VE LOST THEIR DAD.. THEY SHOULD BE ALLOWED TO SEE THEIR MOM & HUG HER & TELL HER THEY LOVE HER.. BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE.. I BELIEVE.. 'IF' YOU'RE IN THE POSITION TO HELP OTHERS.. (ESPECIALLY YOUR OWN FAMILY) THEN YOU SHOULD.. THOSE '2' SISTERS SHOULD BE MAKING AN EFFORT TO 'HELP' THE OLDER ONES...NOT SIT BACK ON A POWER TRIP, HOLDING MY PARENTS CAPTIVE.. & ACTUALLY REFUSING TO OFFER ANY TYPE OF HELP WHATSOEVER TO THE ELDER ONES... IN MY OPINION... "WHO'S ABUSING WHO" IN THIS SITUATION??? SEEMS TO ME, MY PARENT'S SHOULD BE ABLE TO HELP WHOMEVER THEY WANT .. CORRECT?? THEY ARE "BOTH" STILL VERY 'WITH IT' MENTALLY... & MY POOR MOM HAS ASKED ALL OF US DAUGHTERS TO GO TO HER... SHE WANTS ALL '5' DAUGHTERS WITH HER ONCE MORE BEFORE SHE IS CALLED HOME.. 'I' HAVE NOT ASKED FOR , NOR DO 'I' NEED THEIR HELP.. HOWEVER THEY HAVE OFFERED.. BUT THEY WILL MAKE THE SAME THREATS TO ME IF 'I' WERE IN A POSITION WHERE I NEEDED THEIR HELP.. LIKE I SAY, I'M THE BLACK SHEEP!! I DON'T MIND EITHER.. I AM VERY THANKFUL & BLESSED 'I' CAME OUT THE WAY I HAVE... I AM THE MIDDLE ONE OF MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER.. I SEE NO DIFFERENCE IN 'ALL 5' SISTERS.. I DO HOWEVER SEE THAT .. THE '2' THAT ARE IN CONTROL OF MY PARENTS HAVE CHANGED OVER THE YEARS.. I JUST FEEL SAD FOR THEM.. & WANT TO REMIND THEM.. GOD IS WATCHING YOU.. & KARMA WILL PAY YOU A VISIT FOR ALL THAT YOU ARE DOING NOW AS WELL AS FOR THE TERRIBLY CRUEL THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE PAST.. I'M THANKFUL GOD'S WITH ME.. I'M THE ONLY DAUGHTER THAT CAN ACTUALLY "EMPATHIZE" WITH MY MOTHER.. IN THE DISEASE & ILLNESS PROCESSES~. I AM SO SO THANKFUL I AM AROUND MY KIDS DURING THESE PAINFUL & TERRIFYING TIMES.. I KNOW WHAT MY MOM IS GOING THROUGH.. I WANT TO SEE MY MOM TOO & PROBABLY WILL.. NONE OF THEM WILL BE ABLE TO 'STOP' ME.. IT'S JUST SO SAD THEY'RE HURTING MY OLDER SISTERS IN SUCH A CRUEL.. EVEN EVIL WAY!!
MY '2' OLDER SISTERS HAVE MADE A "GO FUND ME" PAGE ASKING FOR "HELP" ..(OF COURSE 'I' WILL BE HELPING WHAT 'I' CAN ..AS WELL AS MY OWN KIDS WILL BE ALSO)
I'M HAVING A HARD TIME WITH THIS.. CONSIDERING IT'S "MY" FAMILY.. BUT I WANTED TO REMIND ALL OF YOU .. 'MY' FRIENDS OUT THERE.. THAT THESE '2' PARENTS ARE THE "MUSICIANS" WHO STARTED THE MUSIC IN MY LIFE.. THESE ARE 'MY' PARENTS WHO GAVE 'ME' THE GIFT OF MUSIC.. THAT 'I' PASS ON DAILY... I CAN'T RELATE TO THE OTHER '2' SISTERS.. HONESTLY, I'VE SEEN THEM BOTH BE MEAN, HATEFUL.. BUT "THIS"?? I DIDN'T THINK NOR WOULD I HAVE EVER BELIEVED THAT ANY OF MY SISTERS WERE CAPABLE OF SUCH CRUELTY... 'EVIL' EVEN~!. 'THIS' IS WHAT "THE LOVE OF MONEY DOES!! ~ IT SAYS IT PLAINLY IN THE "BIBLE"..."FOR THE LOVE OF MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL".. (Too MANY THINK THAT SAYS THAT 'MOENY' IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL, IT DOES NOT, IT'S THE "LOVE OF MONEY" THAT'S THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL") .. 1st TIMOTHY chapter '6:10' ... I'VE KNOWN THIS VERSE SO WELL GROWING UP..
I JUST NEVER WOULD HAVE "BELIEVED" IT 'COULD' HAVE EVEN HAPPENED IN 'MY' FAMILY~!!! WE GREW UP A VERY LOVING FAMILY.. BUT NOW... LIKE I SAID, I LOVE THEM ALL, BUT I'M THE BLACK SHEEP....IT'S SAD, BUT BECAUSE OF ALL THE THINGS 'IVE' EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE.. HAS CAUSE ALOT OF JEALOUSY.. & RESENTMENT FROM THE SISTERS AGAINST ME.. I CAN'T HELP THE PLAN & THE PATH THE LORD SET BEFORE 'ME' TO FOLLOW.. I'VE BEEN THROUGH SO SO SO MUCH.. BAD AS WELL AS GOOD.. & I'M THANKFUL FOR IT ALL.... I'M ALSO THE ONLY ONE OF THE '3' SISTERS WHO HAS BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH NOT 'ONE' BUT SEVERAL TERMINAL DISEASES ~
I WON'T DWELL ON IT, I'M NOT ASKING FOR PITY, ALL I WANT TO SHARE IN REGARDS TO THAT IS... I CHERISH EVERY SINGLE DAY I'M GIVEN WITH MY KIDS.. & MY VERY SPECIAL FAMILY & FRIENDS.. I'M THANKFUL HE HAS ALLOWED ME TO KNOW HIM & HIS WORD(S) .. TO SEE MY OLDER SISTER'S HURT THIS WAY.. IS SO PAINFUL.. I WOULD STEP IN & TAKE THEIR PAIN AWAY AT ANY MOMENT, IF IT WERE POSSIBLE~!
PLEASE READ THEIR PAGE.. PLEASE TAKE THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND THE 'BACK-SIDE' TO THEIR STORY ... 'I'M' COMING OUT HERE TO VALIDATE THAT ... THEIR "PAGE" IS LEGIT... IT'S REAL.. IT'S DEFINITELY TRUE~!!! ..
'IF' THERE'S ANY WAY YOU CAN HELP THEM... PLEASE DO... IF NOT.. WE ALL APPRECIATE YOUR PRAYERS... I KNOW ALL 'MY' FRIENDS ARE GOOD PEOPLE.. I PRAY THAT YOU SEARCH YOUR HEARTS & DO WHATEVER THE GREAT SPIRIT GUIDES YOU TO DO... THESE ARE 'MY' OLDER SISTERS... I CAN PROMISE YOU, THEY WOULD "NEVER EVER" COME OUT & DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS UNLESS IT WASN'T DESPERATELY NEEDED...
I LOVE MY SISTERS.. & EVEN THOUGH 'I'M' TOO ILL TO TRAVEL MYSELF AT THIS TIME.. I'M HOLDING FAST TO MY FAITH THAT OUR CREATOR WILL ALLOW ME TO SEE MY MOM, AS WELL AS 'SHE SEE ME'..(NO ONE KNOWS WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS.. IT COULD VERY WELL BE 'ME' WHO'S CALLED HOME FIRST.. WE KNOW NOT WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS.. BUT NO MATTER WHAT, THIS IS LOOKING MORE & MORE (SADLY) AS IT WILL BE THEM SEEING OUR MOM FOR THE 'LAST TIME'!
THANK YOU FOR LISTENING TO ME.. I KNOW MY SISTERS WILL 'NOT' BE HAPPY THAT 'I'VE' COME FORWARD & SAID THE TRUTH... BUT MY OLDER SISTERS HAVE THE RIGHT TO SEE OUR MOM.. & THEY DESERVE THE ENTIRE TRUTH BE TOLD SO PEOPLE WILL TAKE THEM & THEIR CAUSE SERIOUSLY... THEY WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO TELL THE 'TRUTH' ..NOT THE WHOLE TRUTH, THEY WOULDN'T WANT ALL OF YOU OUT THERE TO 'SEE' MY OTHER SISTERS FOR WHO THEY ARE AND FOR WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO CAUSE THE OLDER ONES TO ACTUALLY HAVE TO ASK FOR HELP LIKE THIS...
I KNOW THEY WILL GET UPSET WITH 'ME' FOR SPEAKING THE TRUTH..BUT.. HEY,
THEY DON'T CLAIM 'ME' ANYWAY... I'M ALSO VERY ILL.. &.. I LOVE MY OLDER SISTERS AS WELL AS MY MOM VERY VERY MUCH... SO.. WHAT DO 'I' HAVE TO LOSE?? .. THEY, THE OLDER ONE'S ARE RISKING LOSING THEIR ONLY LIVING TRUE PARENT ..AS WELL AS THEIR DIGNITY... I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH TOO SEE THEM HURTING LIKE THIS...
"I'M SORRY MY DEAR SISTERS... BUT YOU BOTH KNOW YOUR "SCORPIO" LITTLE SISTER.... IT'S NOT IN MY NATURE TO JUST BY & 'WATCH' YOU GET HURT LIKE THIS!! ...
I PRAY OUR GREAT CREATOR WILL COMFORT YOUR HEARTS.. & EASE YOUR PAIN...
HE WILL PROVIDE A WAY.. HAVE FAITH & TRUST HIM...
SENDING YOU ALL MY LOVE.. & STRENGTH... YOU'LL GET THERE <3<3<3
GIVE MOM A HUGE HUG & TELL HER I LOVE HER SO SO MUCH... <3<3<3
TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE.. MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS.. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME..
I'M SO THANKFUL YOU ARE ALL THERE TO AT LEAST "LISTEN" TO ME <3 :)
THIS IS THE LINK TO THE .. 'GO FUND ME' PAGE MY SISTERS CREATED <3
AGAIN.... THANK YOU VERY MUCH <3 <3 <3
http://www.gofundme.com/h4t9r0
Friday, November 14, 2014
Monday, November 10, 2014
I TOLD MY MOM I WAS GOING TO DIE BEFORE I WAS 19yrs OLD... & I DID
All my young life, I used to tell my Mom, I was going to DIE before I turned '19'...
She would get MAD at me & tell me to STOP saying that.. She said I was being MORBID.. I wasn't though.. I had ALWAYS #FELT that I would DIE before reaching '19'yrs old... Everyone said I was being WEIRD etc.. But I was born with a Gift that ..back THEN, I didn't fully understand.. (Now I do, Very Well!)
When 'I' was '18' yrs old.. (a long time ago lol) On NOVEMBER 10th at '4:15' Cali Time.. My Boyfriend & 'I' were involved in a TERRIBLE "HEAD ON" COLLISION with a Drunk Driver.. It was a Car full of Young Guys from Mexico.. I lived in Central Cali at the time.. (San Joaquin Valley) We were on our way to Fresno..
No One in Our car had been drinking.. it WAS the afternoon../ Early evening..
We were driving through the Curvy, '2 lane' roads... I saw the Car come around the corner in our lane.. it Side Swiped the car ahead of us.. but it kept coming in our lane..Both cars were going about 45mph... We were between '2' hills..My Boyfriend had said he TRIED to turn the wheel to either side to swerve..but something kept pulling the wheel back..to make it straight.. I remember Screaming & Crossing my arms over my face right before the car hit us.. it was DIRECT "HEAD-ON".. HEADLIGHT to HEADLIGHT.. BOTH cars were TOTALED.. They looked very much alike actually.. I guess I passed out cause the next thing I can remember is.. HEARING a Very Loud BANGING sound.. "Bang! Bang! Bang!" OVER & OVER .. It was getting louder & louder.. I felt myself being dragged along the ground.. I remember I kept TRYING to OPEN My eyes.. but they wouldn't open at first.. Finally they did.. Everything was blurry.. I realized I was being dragged by my Boyfriend & His cousin who was in the Front seat with us, 'I' was in the middle.. I still could hear the 'BANGING' noise but not as LOUD.. I looked up above my head & saw that the NOISE was actually 'BLOOD' dripping from my Boyfriend's face onto MY Forehead.. His face was Badly Cut Up from the glass from the windshield.. I remember Passing out & coming to.. don't know how long I was out each time, I knew I was in the field on the ground.. the next time there were Firefighters there & One was kneeling beside me covering me with a blanket.. I saw my Boyfriend across from me crying.. I kept trying to get up to go help him, but I couldn't.. Then the Fireman said "You have to lay still" I asked, 'WHY'?? He needs help, let me go help him.. He said you can't .. You can't get up.. I asked WHY again.. he said 'Because, Your Legs are Badly Broken'!! .. I was like.. HUHH?? I looked down at my legs & .. THEY LOOKED FINE TO ME".. (I was obv in SHOCK) .. I saw our Car on FIRE.. Then I remember waking up in the Ambulance .. hearing someone crying out in pain.. the Paramedic was holding an O2 mask on Me.. I said "Go help that guy>>!! " .. He said "We've done ALL we can for him!!" I was upset about that..! .. Then I woke up again in a Dark room.. On a Hard Cold Table with a SHEET covering me up to my neck/shoulders.. I started screaming!!
I KNEW 'THEY' thought 'I' was DEAD.. but I wasn't.. I kept looking around trying to SEE in the dark & I couldn't.. I kept SCREAMING "HELP ME, I'M NOT DEAD, I'M NOT DEAD.." til finally some people came running in.. They turned on the lights & said they knew I wasn't dead, No Judy you're alive now.. (I was like HUHH?) They said I was in the X-RAY room..they turned the lights off so I could RELAX..??!! I said 'WHO TURNS THE LIGHTS "OFF" WHEN YOU'RE COVERED LIKE THIS & THE PATIENT IS UNCONSCIOUS???" (lame!!) I thought YOU thought 'I' was DEAD.. I woke up AGAIN with a Dr screwing something THROUGH my knee/shin .. there were also several young student nurses in there.. I couldn't FEEL anything but blood squirted up & over me.. (lol) One of the students LOST IT.. she passed out...she fell ON TOP OF ME then slid down & hit her head on the wall (poor thing) but the Dr kept on working..he just told someone to pick her up :/ .. I was having one of my legs put in Traction.. The other leg was completely LIMP.. I could NOT FEEL IT or MOVE it.. they told me My Right FEMUR (thigh) was broken in HALF & they would have to do surgery & put a Metal Rod inside it..But I wouldn't be able to MOVE it or HAVE FEELING in it for a long time.. Then the left leg was in Traction, they said my Left Ankle was SEVERELY Broken, it had broken so badly it was literally upside down.. The bottom of my foot was facing the ceiling.. The mended it with Screws, pins & wires.. & put a 5lb cast on the left leg ~ Pulled it up in traction.. I was in Surgery ALL the NEXT DAY >>> 11/11 ..My '19th' BIRTHDAY.. I STILL hadn't seen my face.. While I was still in the Emergency Room.. They kept Looking for MY parents.. but couldn't find them, & my parents kept looking for ME .. Turns out..They had been looking for Hispanic Parents lol cause I looked Hispanic.. but Nope .. lol Anyway.. My Mom said she was terrified to SEE my face.. cause she had already seen the other people involved in the accident..Including my Boyfriend.. ALL of them were messed up, She made my Dad go in forst to see how bad my FACE was.. Thankfully, I was wearing my Coat when I crossed my arms over my FACE, 'ALL' the Glass went into the FUR around the Sleeves.. My Face wasn't CUT at ALL except for a small scratch on my chin a black eye & a soft yucky spot on my forehead..but NO Broken skin No glass.. Sadly, '2' passengers of the other car passed away (I think..) I'm POSITIVE '1' did.. I was in & out of it for a few days.. I was in the hospital for a Month.. UNABLE to Move.. Unsure IF 'I' was ever gonna be able to move my right leg again.. My Friend Eileen lived in Fresno.. She came to see me everyday.. I had very long hair, even back then, she spent HOURS pulling out the fox tails that were stuck in my hair from being dragged through the field..then she washed my hair for me.. (I couldn't move AT ALL!! I hope SHE knows how much I appreciate her! <3)
I spent Thanksgiving in the hospital.. Eileen brought me some Home made Dinner.. (Very Grateful!)
My family couldn't be there everyday.. they were working.. My Boyfriend was mending at home, an hour or more away.. not to mention we were ALL a bit PHOBIC about riding in cars through those roads again esp. the curvy hills... I was released in December.. I came home & Since my parents owned Nursing Homes, they put a Hospital bed in the house for me, I was STILL unable to walk.. I was small to begin with.. but I weighed '98lbs' when I got out, & that's including the 5lb cast.. & also the 5lb ROD inside my Right leg.. (IT SUCKED!) I had to be CARRIED Everywhere.. it was embarrassing to have my LITTLE sister even have to CARRY me to the restroom.. the entire thing was humiliating.. On February 14th, Valentine's day, I received my 1st WALKING CAST.. & Walker.. up til then, everyone would take me for walks in a wheelchair.. With ALOT of Effort & Tears.. I was able to start walking again.. I fell ALOT when I wouldn't use the walker & even when I DID! I SLOWLY got better, but.. I NEVER completely HEALED..
Before this accident.. I was.. A "RUNNER".. A "DANCER" & A "DRUMMER"..
ALL OF THOSE THINGS.. REQUIRE MY LEGS.. Even though I KNEW I WOULD "NEVER" BE THE SAME, OR BE ABLE TO DO THOSE THINGS AGAIN.. I WAS STILL VERY THANKFUL..
I WAS VERY THANKFUL I STILL HAD MY LEGS, & WAS ABLE TO AT LEAST "WALK" .. LETTING GO OF MY 'LOVES' FELT LIKE PIECES OF ME WERE BEING RIPPED AWAY..
BUT I WAS STILL VERY THANKFUL...
I WAS THANKFUL... I WAS "ALIVE"~!!.... IT WASN'T TIL A FEW YEARS LATER MY THEN BOYFRIEND, (WHO WOULD BECOME MY HUSBAND) TOLD ME..
JUDY, YOU WERE 'RIGHT'..ALL THOSE YEARS..>> WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD "DIE" BEFORE YOU TURNED '19' yrs OLD.. YOU WERE RIGHT....HE TOLD ME THAT >>
ACCORDING TO THE PARAMEDICS & Dr's.. I WAS "CLINICALLY" DEAD.. SEVERAL TIMES THAT DAY... "NOVEMBER 10th".. THE DAY "BEFORE" MY 19th BIRTHDAY !! ~
Like I said.. I was BORN with a Gift.. a Gift of SEEING & FEELING 'THINGS' BEFORE THEY HAPPEN...BACK THEN.. I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND IT..
BUT I DEFINITELY UNDERSTAND IT NOW.. & I 'NEVER' DOUBT THOSE FEELINGS, EVER.. CAUSE UP TO THIS DAY.. THEY'VE NEVER BEEN "WRONG" .. I'M BLESSED TO HAVE BEEN GIVEN A 2nd 3rd & even 4th CHANCE 'THAT' DAY... TOMORROW,.. '11/11 @ 11am I CELEBRATE MY BIRTH...<3 BUT 'TODAY' .. I CELEBRATE THE ANNIVERSARY OF MY '2nd' CHANCE AT 'LIFE' <3 <3 <3 .. I AM VERY THANKFUL.. EVEN THOUGH I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO DO THE THINGS I LOVED SO SO MUCH.. AT LEAST NOT THE 'SAME' AS I ONCE DID.. I AM THANKFUL, I AM GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY TO WORK WITH & CONTINUE ON IN THE WORK I'M MOST PASSIONATE ABOUT... MUSIC & DANCING~!! ..
I ALSO AM BLESSED THAT THE MUSIC HAS PASSED ON TO MY KIDS <3 & TO THEIR KIDS <3 ;) THEY'RE STILL VERY YOUNG, BUT THEY'RE ALREADY TRYING.. <3
NEVER EVER TAKE ONE SINGLE MINUTE OF YOUR "LIFE" FOR GRANTED!!
NEVER EVER BELIEVE.."THAT TERRIBLE THINGS CAN 'ONLY' HAPPEN TO THE "OTHER GUY".. CAUSE IT CAN & DOES HAPPEN TO MANY MANY OF US.. EVERY SINGLE DAY!! .. ALWAYS BE MINDFUL & THANKFUL FOR EACH & EVERY BLESSING.. OF EACH & EVERY BREATH YOU ARE BLESSED TO TAKE.. CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW "WHEN" IT CAN BE 'YOUR LAST' <3 <3 <3
She would get MAD at me & tell me to STOP saying that.. She said I was being MORBID.. I wasn't though.. I had ALWAYS #FELT that I would DIE before reaching '19'yrs old... Everyone said I was being WEIRD etc.. But I was born with a Gift that ..back THEN, I didn't fully understand.. (Now I do, Very Well!)
When 'I' was '18' yrs old.. (a long time ago lol) On NOVEMBER 10th at '4:15' Cali Time.. My Boyfriend & 'I' were involved in a TERRIBLE "HEAD ON" COLLISION with a Drunk Driver.. It was a Car full of Young Guys from Mexico.. I lived in Central Cali at the time.. (San Joaquin Valley) We were on our way to Fresno..
No One in Our car had been drinking.. it WAS the afternoon../ Early evening..
We were driving through the Curvy, '2 lane' roads... I saw the Car come around the corner in our lane.. it Side Swiped the car ahead of us.. but it kept coming in our lane..Both cars were going about 45mph... We were between '2' hills..My Boyfriend had said he TRIED to turn the wheel to either side to swerve..but something kept pulling the wheel back..to make it straight.. I remember Screaming & Crossing my arms over my face right before the car hit us.. it was DIRECT "HEAD-ON".. HEADLIGHT to HEADLIGHT.. BOTH cars were TOTALED.. They looked very much alike actually.. I guess I passed out cause the next thing I can remember is.. HEARING a Very Loud BANGING sound.. "Bang! Bang! Bang!" OVER & OVER .. It was getting louder & louder.. I felt myself being dragged along the ground.. I remember I kept TRYING to OPEN My eyes.. but they wouldn't open at first.. Finally they did.. Everything was blurry.. I realized I was being dragged by my Boyfriend & His cousin who was in the Front seat with us, 'I' was in the middle.. I still could hear the 'BANGING' noise but not as LOUD.. I looked up above my head & saw that the NOISE was actually 'BLOOD' dripping from my Boyfriend's face onto MY Forehead.. His face was Badly Cut Up from the glass from the windshield.. I remember Passing out & coming to.. don't know how long I was out each time, I knew I was in the field on the ground.. the next time there were Firefighters there & One was kneeling beside me covering me with a blanket.. I saw my Boyfriend across from me crying.. I kept trying to get up to go help him, but I couldn't.. Then the Fireman said "You have to lay still" I asked, 'WHY'?? He needs help, let me go help him.. He said you can't .. You can't get up.. I asked WHY again.. he said 'Because, Your Legs are Badly Broken'!! .. I was like.. HUHH?? I looked down at my legs & .. THEY LOOKED FINE TO ME".. (I was obv in SHOCK) .. I saw our Car on FIRE.. Then I remember waking up in the Ambulance .. hearing someone crying out in pain.. the Paramedic was holding an O2 mask on Me.. I said "Go help that guy>>!! " .. He said "We've done ALL we can for him!!" I was upset about that..! .. Then I woke up again in a Dark room.. On a Hard Cold Table with a SHEET covering me up to my neck/shoulders.. I started screaming!!
I KNEW 'THEY' thought 'I' was DEAD.. but I wasn't.. I kept looking around trying to SEE in the dark & I couldn't.. I kept SCREAMING "HELP ME, I'M NOT DEAD, I'M NOT DEAD.." til finally some people came running in.. They turned on the lights & said they knew I wasn't dead, No Judy you're alive now.. (I was like HUHH?) They said I was in the X-RAY room..they turned the lights off so I could RELAX..??!! I said 'WHO TURNS THE LIGHTS "OFF" WHEN YOU'RE COVERED LIKE THIS & THE PATIENT IS UNCONSCIOUS???" (lame!!) I thought YOU thought 'I' was DEAD.. I woke up AGAIN with a Dr screwing something THROUGH my knee/shin .. there were also several young student nurses in there.. I couldn't FEEL anything but blood squirted up & over me.. (lol) One of the students LOST IT.. she passed out...she fell ON TOP OF ME then slid down & hit her head on the wall (poor thing) but the Dr kept on working..he just told someone to pick her up :/ .. I was having one of my legs put in Traction.. The other leg was completely LIMP.. I could NOT FEEL IT or MOVE it.. they told me My Right FEMUR (thigh) was broken in HALF & they would have to do surgery & put a Metal Rod inside it..But I wouldn't be able to MOVE it or HAVE FEELING in it for a long time.. Then the left leg was in Traction, they said my Left Ankle was SEVERELY Broken, it had broken so badly it was literally upside down.. The bottom of my foot was facing the ceiling.. The mended it with Screws, pins & wires.. & put a 5lb cast on the left leg ~ Pulled it up in traction.. I was in Surgery ALL the NEXT DAY >>> 11/11 ..My '19th' BIRTHDAY.. I STILL hadn't seen my face.. While I was still in the Emergency Room.. They kept Looking for MY parents.. but couldn't find them, & my parents kept looking for ME .. Turns out..They had been looking for Hispanic Parents lol cause I looked Hispanic.. but Nope .. lol Anyway.. My Mom said she was terrified to SEE my face.. cause she had already seen the other people involved in the accident..Including my Boyfriend.. ALL of them were messed up, She made my Dad go in forst to see how bad my FACE was.. Thankfully, I was wearing my Coat when I crossed my arms over my FACE, 'ALL' the Glass went into the FUR around the Sleeves.. My Face wasn't CUT at ALL except for a small scratch on my chin a black eye & a soft yucky spot on my forehead..but NO Broken skin No glass.. Sadly, '2' passengers of the other car passed away (I think..) I'm POSITIVE '1' did.. I was in & out of it for a few days.. I was in the hospital for a Month.. UNABLE to Move.. Unsure IF 'I' was ever gonna be able to move my right leg again.. My Friend Eileen lived in Fresno.. She came to see me everyday.. I had very long hair, even back then, she spent HOURS pulling out the fox tails that were stuck in my hair from being dragged through the field..then she washed my hair for me.. (I couldn't move AT ALL!! I hope SHE knows how much I appreciate her! <3)
I spent Thanksgiving in the hospital.. Eileen brought me some Home made Dinner.. (Very Grateful!)
My family couldn't be there everyday.. they were working.. My Boyfriend was mending at home, an hour or more away.. not to mention we were ALL a bit PHOBIC about riding in cars through those roads again esp. the curvy hills... I was released in December.. I came home & Since my parents owned Nursing Homes, they put a Hospital bed in the house for me, I was STILL unable to walk.. I was small to begin with.. but I weighed '98lbs' when I got out, & that's including the 5lb cast.. & also the 5lb ROD inside my Right leg.. (IT SUCKED!) I had to be CARRIED Everywhere.. it was embarrassing to have my LITTLE sister even have to CARRY me to the restroom.. the entire thing was humiliating.. On February 14th, Valentine's day, I received my 1st WALKING CAST.. & Walker.. up til then, everyone would take me for walks in a wheelchair.. With ALOT of Effort & Tears.. I was able to start walking again.. I fell ALOT when I wouldn't use the walker & even when I DID! I SLOWLY got better, but.. I NEVER completely HEALED..
Before this accident.. I was.. A "RUNNER".. A "DANCER" & A "DRUMMER"..
ALL OF THOSE THINGS.. REQUIRE MY LEGS.. Even though I KNEW I WOULD "NEVER" BE THE SAME, OR BE ABLE TO DO THOSE THINGS AGAIN.. I WAS STILL VERY THANKFUL..
I WAS VERY THANKFUL I STILL HAD MY LEGS, & WAS ABLE TO AT LEAST "WALK" .. LETTING GO OF MY 'LOVES' FELT LIKE PIECES OF ME WERE BEING RIPPED AWAY..
BUT I WAS STILL VERY THANKFUL...
I WAS THANKFUL... I WAS "ALIVE"~!!.... IT WASN'T TIL A FEW YEARS LATER MY THEN BOYFRIEND, (WHO WOULD BECOME MY HUSBAND) TOLD ME..
JUDY, YOU WERE 'RIGHT'..ALL THOSE YEARS..>> WHEN YOU SAID YOU WOULD "DIE" BEFORE YOU TURNED '19' yrs OLD.. YOU WERE RIGHT....HE TOLD ME THAT >>
ACCORDING TO THE PARAMEDICS & Dr's.. I WAS "CLINICALLY" DEAD.. SEVERAL TIMES THAT DAY... "NOVEMBER 10th".. THE DAY "BEFORE" MY 19th BIRTHDAY !! ~
Like I said.. I was BORN with a Gift.. a Gift of SEEING & FEELING 'THINGS' BEFORE THEY HAPPEN...BACK THEN.. I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND IT..
BUT I DEFINITELY UNDERSTAND IT NOW.. & I 'NEVER' DOUBT THOSE FEELINGS, EVER.. CAUSE UP TO THIS DAY.. THEY'VE NEVER BEEN "WRONG" .. I'M BLESSED TO HAVE BEEN GIVEN A 2nd 3rd & even 4th CHANCE 'THAT' DAY... TOMORROW,.. '11/11 @ 11am I CELEBRATE MY BIRTH...<3 BUT 'TODAY' .. I CELEBRATE THE ANNIVERSARY OF MY '2nd' CHANCE AT 'LIFE' <3 <3 <3 .. I AM VERY THANKFUL.. EVEN THOUGH I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO DO THE THINGS I LOVED SO SO MUCH.. AT LEAST NOT THE 'SAME' AS I ONCE DID.. I AM THANKFUL, I AM GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY TO WORK WITH & CONTINUE ON IN THE WORK I'M MOST PASSIONATE ABOUT... MUSIC & DANCING~!! ..
I ALSO AM BLESSED THAT THE MUSIC HAS PASSED ON TO MY KIDS <3 & TO THEIR KIDS <3 ;) THEY'RE STILL VERY YOUNG, BUT THEY'RE ALREADY TRYING.. <3
NEVER EVER TAKE ONE SINGLE MINUTE OF YOUR "LIFE" FOR GRANTED!!
NEVER EVER BELIEVE.."THAT TERRIBLE THINGS CAN 'ONLY' HAPPEN TO THE "OTHER GUY".. CAUSE IT CAN & DOES HAPPEN TO MANY MANY OF US.. EVERY SINGLE DAY!! .. ALWAYS BE MINDFUL & THANKFUL FOR EACH & EVERY BLESSING.. OF EACH & EVERY BREATH YOU ARE BLESSED TO TAKE.. CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW "WHEN" IT CAN BE 'YOUR LAST' <3 <3 <3
Saturday, October 25, 2014
MY HORRIBLE NIGHT LAST NIGHT & EVERY NIGHT AT .."THE WITCHING HOUR"
Yesterday was one of my GOOD DAYS.. I'm Thankful.. & today has been pretty good too.. However LAST NIGHT was .. Extremely STRESSFUL & ANXIOUS!
It had nothing to do with my being sick.. Had everything to do with ME & My Waking EVERY NIGHT AT 03:00-03:30am .. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT SINCE I WAS '17'yrs old!! It's been a Very Frustrating thing! Last night was one of the MORE Frustrating times.. Involving our Cats... I don't know how many of you believe IN or even KNOW much about the 'PARANORMAL' in life.. I believe in it.. because.. well I'VE LIVED IT..
"ALL MY LIFE".. I've had many many WEIRD / STRANGE things happen to ME that No One can explain.. UNLESS you go down the Paranormal road!
In the PARANORMAL Life '3:00-3:30AM' IS "THE WITCHING HOUR!"
I'm very used to it now.. of course.. & I'm not afraid of it at all.. Remember ALL you Christians out there.. 'That LIFE' (Period) IS COMPLETELY BASED ON BALANCE'... THE UNIVERSE MUST ALWAYS 'REMAIN IN BALANCE'.. Where there is Jesus there is Satan, where there are Angels there are Demons.. Where there is Good, there is Evil.. Where there is LIGHT..there is DARK.. "BALANCE!" :)
Anyway.. there is a fight going on between the '2'.. every day in EVERYONE'S Life! So.. in KNOWING THIS.. I've been fighting MY battle as far back as I can remember.. Esp against DEMONS & EVIL.. if you know about CATS & many other animals but Cats are VERY known for this.. THEY can SEE EVIL & FEEL EVIL in & around them or in the home.. or.. around their MASTER .. As was the case last night! I woke up at '3am' as usual even tho I didn't actually fall asleep until about 1:30-2:00am .. Doesn't matter, I still wake up at '3am'.. When this happens, I MUST get up out of bed.. & walk around the house, I will look in all the rooms, I will look out the windows.. etc.. WHAT or WHOM I'm looking FOR .. I've never known to this day.. I just know I feel I HAVE to do it.. My Mom used to think I was totally weird.. but.. NOT my Dad! He KNEW "WHY" I was doing this, he too tho, was NOT sure WHAT or WHOM was calling to me or Bothering me.. Last night when I woke up, I noticed ALL '3' cats were gathered around ME on my bed.. (they don't sleep with me!!) They were ALL '3' very upset, their hackles were up & they kept hissing at the hallway.. they would even climb under my blankets & peek out from under them..& STARE at the doorway leading to the hallway.. Since these are pretty much kittens, they're NEW to this in our home.. I got up walked through the house, checking everything.. noticed our back door to the Garage was unlocked & sorta ajar.. I closed it & locked it.. then I PRAYED! .. as I ALWAYS DO.. I had to try to calm down the cats! They were Terrified of whatever was in the house.. So I SENT IT AWAY!
We all have the power to rebuke EVIL.. SAY IT OUT OF YOUR MOUTH.. it's a FACT.. once you rebuke them, they HAVE TO LEAVE, PERIOD!
If you're a CHRISTIAN, You can't only believe the parts of the Bible that you WANT to believe.. you have to BELIEVE THE PARTS that make you uncomfortable as well.. You can't pick n choose NOR can you RIDE THE FENCE being LUKE WARM! If you are.. the Lord will SPEW YOU OUT OF HIS MOUTH! Therefore, you've ALL been given GIFTS.. & 'POWER' to banish the EVIL that tries to attack us all.. Satan doesn't wanna go down all alone! So yeah, he's gonna try HARD to take as many Souls WITH him as he can.. NEVER SHOW YOUR FEAR! .. The evil entities FEED off the fear! FEAR IS OF THE DEVIL.. don't feed his minion! Anyway.. Last night I wandered around the house.. until the house was cleared & the cats were CALM.. I then went back to bed & fell asleep .. but I had horrible nightmares.. I don't have any idea why.. nor can I remember them.. but over all.. I HAD A TERRIBLE NIGHT!!!!! .... BUT... Once I got up this morning.. I was much better.. & the day has been going along FINE! .. Like I say.. "MOST" of the time... THE #WEIRD & UNUSUAL (in MY Life) HAPPEN NEAR THE #WITCHING_HOUR .. >>> '3:00 3:30am' ... But.. there are MANY MANY MANY other times when THE ODD PARANORMAL THINGS HAPPEN AT ANY HOUR OF THE DAY.. ON ANY DAY OF THE WEEK...#MY FAMILY (My Kids) & I ARE VERY USED TO IT!! ... If most of you out there would OPEN YOUR EYES.. You'd see the ODD & UNUSUAL happening ALL AROUND YOU TOO.. there's much more to life then gettin up, goin to school or work ..comin home.. goin to bed.. & startin all over again the next day.. WHAT A BORING LIFE & what purpose does it have?? NONE! .. OUR PURPOSE IS TO TRAVEL OUR INDIVIDUAL ROADS WE ARE GIVEN, & FIGHT OUR WAY .. THAT INCLUDES 'ALL' THE EVIL.. & FIND OUR WAY "BACK HOME!"
IF YOU HAVE AN EASY GOIN LIFE.. THINGS COME VERY EASY TO YOU.. YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT.. THEN I WORRY FOR YOUR SOUL..
IT'S THOSE THAT HAVE #TRIAL AFTER #TRIAL THAT I CAN SEE ARE THE ONES WHO ARE WORTHY TO "TEST".. SO FIGHT BACK & FIGHT BACK HARD! .. THIS MEANS THE HIGHER POWERS HAVE THEIR EYES ON YOU.. & THIS.. IS A 'GOOD' THING!! IF "THEY" THINK YOU'RE WORTH TESTING.. THEN YOU ARE "SPECIAL"!! PROVE TO THEM THAT THEY'RE RIGHT IN CHOOSING YOU!! .. <3 ~ I'M PROUD TO HAVE SO MANY PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE, BECAUSE.. WITH EACH TRIAL OR BATTLE I FIGHT, THE STRONGER I BECOME AS A CHRISTIAN, AS A SPIRITUAL PERSON.. THE STRONGER I BECOME AS A 'SOLDIER' & WORTHY TO FIGHT ALONGSIDE THE LORD IN THE "ULTIMATE BALTTLE"..
THE BATTLE BETWEEN 'GOOD & EVIL, DARK & LIGHT' ..THE BATTLE THAT WILL LOCK AWAY "EVIL" FOREVER!! ~ TO ME, IT'S A HUGE HONOR.. WOULDN'T IT BE TO YOU AS WELL ?? <3 I THOUGHT SO! ;)
It had nothing to do with my being sick.. Had everything to do with ME & My Waking EVERY NIGHT AT 03:00-03:30am .. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT SINCE I WAS '17'yrs old!! It's been a Very Frustrating thing! Last night was one of the MORE Frustrating times.. Involving our Cats... I don't know how many of you believe IN or even KNOW much about the 'PARANORMAL' in life.. I believe in it.. because.. well I'VE LIVED IT..
"ALL MY LIFE".. I've had many many WEIRD / STRANGE things happen to ME that No One can explain.. UNLESS you go down the Paranormal road!
In the PARANORMAL Life '3:00-3:30AM' IS "THE WITCHING HOUR!"
I'm very used to it now.. of course.. & I'm not afraid of it at all.. Remember ALL you Christians out there.. 'That LIFE' (Period) IS COMPLETELY BASED ON BALANCE'... THE UNIVERSE MUST ALWAYS 'REMAIN IN BALANCE'.. Where there is Jesus there is Satan, where there are Angels there are Demons.. Where there is Good, there is Evil.. Where there is LIGHT..there is DARK.. "BALANCE!" :)
Anyway.. there is a fight going on between the '2'.. every day in EVERYONE'S Life! So.. in KNOWING THIS.. I've been fighting MY battle as far back as I can remember.. Esp against DEMONS & EVIL.. if you know about CATS & many other animals but Cats are VERY known for this.. THEY can SEE EVIL & FEEL EVIL in & around them or in the home.. or.. around their MASTER .. As was the case last night! I woke up at '3am' as usual even tho I didn't actually fall asleep until about 1:30-2:00am .. Doesn't matter, I still wake up at '3am'.. When this happens, I MUST get up out of bed.. & walk around the house, I will look in all the rooms, I will look out the windows.. etc.. WHAT or WHOM I'm looking FOR .. I've never known to this day.. I just know I feel I HAVE to do it.. My Mom used to think I was totally weird.. but.. NOT my Dad! He KNEW "WHY" I was doing this, he too tho, was NOT sure WHAT or WHOM was calling to me or Bothering me.. Last night when I woke up, I noticed ALL '3' cats were gathered around ME on my bed.. (they don't sleep with me!!) They were ALL '3' very upset, their hackles were up & they kept hissing at the hallway.. they would even climb under my blankets & peek out from under them..& STARE at the doorway leading to the hallway.. Since these are pretty much kittens, they're NEW to this in our home.. I got up walked through the house, checking everything.. noticed our back door to the Garage was unlocked & sorta ajar.. I closed it & locked it.. then I PRAYED! .. as I ALWAYS DO.. I had to try to calm down the cats! They were Terrified of whatever was in the house.. So I SENT IT AWAY!
We all have the power to rebuke EVIL.. SAY IT OUT OF YOUR MOUTH.. it's a FACT.. once you rebuke them, they HAVE TO LEAVE, PERIOD!
If you're a CHRISTIAN, You can't only believe the parts of the Bible that you WANT to believe.. you have to BELIEVE THE PARTS that make you uncomfortable as well.. You can't pick n choose NOR can you RIDE THE FENCE being LUKE WARM! If you are.. the Lord will SPEW YOU OUT OF HIS MOUTH! Therefore, you've ALL been given GIFTS.. & 'POWER' to banish the EVIL that tries to attack us all.. Satan doesn't wanna go down all alone! So yeah, he's gonna try HARD to take as many Souls WITH him as he can.. NEVER SHOW YOUR FEAR! .. The evil entities FEED off the fear! FEAR IS OF THE DEVIL.. don't feed his minion! Anyway.. Last night I wandered around the house.. until the house was cleared & the cats were CALM.. I then went back to bed & fell asleep .. but I had horrible nightmares.. I don't have any idea why.. nor can I remember them.. but over all.. I HAD A TERRIBLE NIGHT!!!!! .... BUT... Once I got up this morning.. I was much better.. & the day has been going along FINE! .. Like I say.. "MOST" of the time... THE #WEIRD & UNUSUAL (in MY Life) HAPPEN NEAR THE #WITCHING_HOUR .. >>> '3:00 3:30am' ... But.. there are MANY MANY MANY other times when THE ODD PARANORMAL THINGS HAPPEN AT ANY HOUR OF THE DAY.. ON ANY DAY OF THE WEEK...#MY FAMILY (My Kids) & I ARE VERY USED TO IT!! ... If most of you out there would OPEN YOUR EYES.. You'd see the ODD & UNUSUAL happening ALL AROUND YOU TOO.. there's much more to life then gettin up, goin to school or work ..comin home.. goin to bed.. & startin all over again the next day.. WHAT A BORING LIFE & what purpose does it have?? NONE! .. OUR PURPOSE IS TO TRAVEL OUR INDIVIDUAL ROADS WE ARE GIVEN, & FIGHT OUR WAY .. THAT INCLUDES 'ALL' THE EVIL.. & FIND OUR WAY "BACK HOME!"
IF YOU HAVE AN EASY GOIN LIFE.. THINGS COME VERY EASY TO YOU.. YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT.. THEN I WORRY FOR YOUR SOUL..
IT'S THOSE THAT HAVE #TRIAL AFTER #TRIAL THAT I CAN SEE ARE THE ONES WHO ARE WORTHY TO "TEST".. SO FIGHT BACK & FIGHT BACK HARD! .. THIS MEANS THE HIGHER POWERS HAVE THEIR EYES ON YOU.. & THIS.. IS A 'GOOD' THING!! IF "THEY" THINK YOU'RE WORTH TESTING.. THEN YOU ARE "SPECIAL"!! PROVE TO THEM THAT THEY'RE RIGHT IN CHOOSING YOU!! .. <3 ~ I'M PROUD TO HAVE SO MANY PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE, BECAUSE.. WITH EACH TRIAL OR BATTLE I FIGHT, THE STRONGER I BECOME AS A CHRISTIAN, AS A SPIRITUAL PERSON.. THE STRONGER I BECOME AS A 'SOLDIER' & WORTHY TO FIGHT ALONGSIDE THE LORD IN THE "ULTIMATE BALTTLE"..
THE BATTLE BETWEEN 'GOOD & EVIL, DARK & LIGHT' ..THE BATTLE THAT WILL LOCK AWAY "EVIL" FOREVER!! ~ TO ME, IT'S A HUGE HONOR.. WOULDN'T IT BE TO YOU AS WELL ?? <3 I THOUGHT SO! ;)
Sunday, July 20, 2014
HAVE A BLESSED SONDAY
Good Morning Facebook.. Hope you ALL have a Blessed Sunday! ..
Remember >> THIS is #4 "Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days shalt thou labour, and do all thy work: But the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord thy God: in it thou shalt not do any work, thou, nor thy son, nor thy daughter, thy manservant, nor thy maidservant, nor thy cattle, nor thy stranger that is within thy gates: For in six days the Lord made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that in them is, and rested the seventh day: wherefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day, and hallowed it."
We should #ALL Try to #Remember & #Practice the #Top_10 (at Least)..>>>
Don't you agree??? Our Lord is THERE for us..( ALL of us)... 24 hrs a Day..#EVERY SINGLE DAY... THE LEAST WE CAN DO IS TO GIVE #HIM "ONE" DAY IN RETURN.. I don't think that He's asking TOO MUCH from us.. Do You?? We all tend to take it for granted that He's THERE right?? Well.. I'm thinking that HE would like to be able to Take US for Granted as well.. ya know, like KNOWING #WE are there.. Worshiping HIM, (without having to be REMINDED TO) & That HE can Count on US to be THERE #ASKING for HIS HELP & GUIDANCE, At ALL times, "WITHOUT #WAITING Til there's a #CRISIS".. & I think HE would like to go to bed at night KNOWING that WE are Giving HIM 'OUR' #UNCONDITIONAL_LOVE.. &#THANKS.. Without having to ASK us for it!!
Our Lord gives Each & Every one of us OUR Very Next Heartbeat, Our Very NEXT Breath.. WHY?? .. NOT BECAUSE HE #HAS TO..BUT BECAUSE HE #WANTSTO
& IT'S BECAUSE HE #LOVES US..#ALL OF US!!.. & WHAT DO #YOU DO IN RETURN FOR ALL THAT #HE DOES FOR YOU IN #YOUR LIFE??
I Hope it's SOMETHING SPECIAL... LIKE MAYBE.. #SHARING HIS WORD WITH ANOTHER #SINNER.. JUST LIKE #OURSELVES.. WE'RE #ALL SINNERS, AGREED?! YA NEVER KNOW.. YOU JUST MIGHT #HELP #SAVE SOMEONES SOUL TODAY..
WOULDN'T #THAT BE AN AWESOME FEELING?? IT COULD BE TODAY!! FOR >>
"THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HATH MADE, ..
LET US BE GLAD AND REJOICE IN IT!!"
#BigE7
**THIS IS THE DAY..**
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5fXhoxJqQQ
Remember >> THIS is #4 "Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days shalt thou labour, and do all thy work: But the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord thy God: in it thou shalt not do any work, thou, nor thy son, nor thy daughter, thy manservant, nor thy maidservant, nor thy cattle, nor thy stranger that is within thy gates: For in six days the Lord made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that in them is, and rested the seventh day: wherefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day, and hallowed it."
We should #ALL Try to #Remember & #Practice the #Top_10 (at Least)..>>>
Don't you agree??? Our Lord is THERE for us..( ALL of us)... 24 hrs a Day..#EVERY SINGLE DAY... THE LEAST WE CAN DO IS TO GIVE #HIM "ONE" DAY IN RETURN.. I don't think that He's asking TOO MUCH from us.. Do You?? We all tend to take it for granted that He's THERE right?? Well.. I'm thinking that HE would like to be able to Take US for Granted as well.. ya know, like KNOWING #WE are there.. Worshiping HIM, (without having to be REMINDED TO) & That HE can Count on US to be THERE #ASKING for HIS HELP & GUIDANCE, At ALL times, "WITHOUT #WAITING Til there's a #CRISIS".. & I think HE would like to go to bed at night KNOWING that WE are Giving HIM 'OUR' #UNCONDITIONAL_LOVE.. &#THANKS.. Without having to ASK us for it!!
Our Lord gives Each & Every one of us OUR Very Next Heartbeat, Our Very NEXT Breath.. WHY?? .. NOT BECAUSE HE #HAS TO..BUT BECAUSE HE #WANTSTO
& IT'S BECAUSE HE #LOVES US..#ALL OF US!!.. & WHAT DO #YOU DO IN RETURN FOR ALL THAT #HE DOES FOR YOU IN #YOUR LIFE??
I Hope it's SOMETHING SPECIAL... LIKE MAYBE.. #SHARING HIS WORD WITH ANOTHER #SINNER.. JUST LIKE #OURSELVES.. WE'RE #ALL SINNERS, AGREED?! YA NEVER KNOW.. YOU JUST MIGHT #HELP #SAVE SOMEONES SOUL TODAY..
WOULDN'T #THAT BE AN AWESOME FEELING?? IT COULD BE TODAY!! FOR >>
"THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HATH MADE, ..
LET US BE GLAD AND REJOICE IN IT!!"
#BigE7
**THIS IS THE DAY..**
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5fXhoxJqQQ
Thursday, July 17, 2014
LIFE IS SUCKIN LATELY!!.. INJURIES..SEIZURES.. MORE..>> :/
Hello.. Quite a few TRAUMATIZING days for me & mine..ths past week!! I fell & hurt myself.. but Thankfully, Nothing was broken.. at least that's what the ER said.. I don't like THIS ER, due to all the SMART ASS Doctors & Nurses.. One thing that bugs the SHXT out of me when it comes to X-RAYS .. The 'DOCTOR'S' are always TRYIN TO READ THEM & just sayin what 'THER' opinion is.. instead of WAITING for the RADIOLOGIST to read them & give His or her OFFICIAL Report & findings!! THEY are the one's who are LEGALLY TRAINED TO READ the X-rays.. I've already been thru HELL with this Hospital & these Doctors a few years back when I hurt my shoulder & arm.. they said THEN that nothing was broken also, & sent me to Physical Therapy.. however, after I was in MORE pain AFTER they began pushing & pulling on my arm I INSISTED on an MRI of the Shoulder & arm.. I get a call later saying.. STOP the Therapy, "YOUR ARM IS BROKEN & YOU HAVE A TORN ROTATOR" !! .. I was like.. DUHH YA THINK?? .. idiots... DON'T COME HERE TO THIS HOSPITAL! What's TRULY DUMB is.. Columbia is the HOME of MIZZOU.. THAT'S A MEDICAL 'TEACHING' UNIVERSITY!! :/ lame or What?? I'm SURE ALL the TOP OF THE CLASS Dr's LEAVE & MOVE AWAY as Soon as they Graduate..leaving behind the BOTTOM of the class to take care of all of US!! :/ I have SO many tests coming up & I HAVE to have them done HERE thru University.. but..if I don't get decent treatment or STUPID results, I WILL go somewhere else for a 2nd or even a 3rd opinion.. My SON JUST MOVED BACK.. & He has been Dx (Diagnosed) with EPILEPSY .. he's been having LOTS of Seizures.. Scares the SHXT outta us.. but.. he's gettin adjusted on some meds, however, today ..earlier, he had a Seizure while IN the Shower.. usually those who have them, Especially Grand Mal types will have an 'AURA' before, Like.. a TRIGGER or a WARNING SIGN.. Joe's is Tunnel Vision.. Well THIS one had NO warning sign what so ever! THIS is the scary stuff.. we still had the EMT's come out to check him out.. cause usually Joe has BACK TO BACK VIOLENT type seizures.. so we didn't know what to expect with this.. We're all requesting prayer for my Son thru this.. I know MILLIONS have Seizures.. but this is VERY NEW to Joe & US.. I was just Dx with "COMPLEX PARTIAL FOCAL SEIZURES".. They're in the Epilepsy family but NOT the Grand Mal type of Seizure.. We get "AURA'S" as well BEFORE the Seizure cpmes on.. but still they are different.. When I had my brain scan I actually had a seizure on the table.. so I was lucky, they caught it on the test, but I still have to have an MRI of the brain tomorrow..The Brain Scan showed that I have sudden bursts of Electrical Activity & they have NO idea WHY.. but that MAY or MAY NOT have anything to do with the seizures.. My seizures are like.. I fall asleep or pass out then I will wake up, or someone will wake me up & I CAN'T remember falling TO sleep I'm ONLY aware of me waking up.. & I'm confused & disoriented for awhile & I have a bangin headache.. but We will see MORE once I have the MRI .. However Joe already had his MRI & SCAN & BOTH showed nothing MAJOR ..well there IS a deformity with the Brain Stem.. So ours are TOTALLY different.. mine is annoying as hell.. Oh & Mine.. you can fall ASLEEP with your eyes OPEN.. Totally trippy! This explains WHY I go to the movies with my family then later see a Trailer for that movie & say Hey that looks good, we should SEE THAT ONE, they'll say we did mom.. AT THE THEATRE.. I'm like HUH?? I'd remember seein it.. but obviously I DON'T :/ but ..again.. Please remember my son in prayer that the Lord take these from him.. & keeps him safe.. Thanx to ALL my Facebook family.. I love & appreciate you! <3
MOST EVERYONE IS FAMILIAR WITH THE EPILEPSY TYPE SEIZURES BUT EVEN 'I' DIDN'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT FOCAL SEIZURES .. SO I'M INCLUDING SOME INFO ON THEM :)
THANKS FOR READING...
SINCERELY....
JUDY
Magick_Scorpio <3
http://www.webmd.boots.com/a-to-z-guides/epilepsy-complex-partial-focal-seizures
MOST EVERYONE IS FAMILIAR WITH THE EPILEPSY TYPE SEIZURES BUT EVEN 'I' DIDN'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT FOCAL SEIZURES .. SO I'M INCLUDING SOME INFO ON THEM :)
THANKS FOR READING...
SINCERELY....
JUDY
Magick_Scorpio <3
http://www.webmd.boots.com/a-to-z-guides/epilepsy-complex-partial-focal-seizures
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
G.E.R.D. .. GASTROESOPHAGEAL REFLUX DISEASE
These days.. I NEVER know WHAT I will find in the Fridge.. Seriously, Jax has us on a Strange Diet.. She's making me drink SOY milk.. & Eat TOFU (eww) I can take the Rice cakes that "Taste Like a Balloon".. but the Tofu is.. Well I just haven't developed a taste for it yet! .. Ugh! So.. it's because of the allergies we've found out .. Lil dude is ALLERGIC TO MILK..(Not just lactose intolerant) but IM Lactose intolerant.. I LOVE Milk & Ice Cream BUT They make me Sick after I've eaten them! Which sux! the '2' WORST things wrong with me that have to do with eating or drinking is, the Intolerance to the Milk products,but I have BAD BAD BAD GERD .. Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease.. Most people think this is JUST HEARTBURN..No it's very DIFFERENT.. It happens usually in the middle of the night, while I'm ASLEEP.. THIS can KILL YA! No joke, Acid shoots up into your mouth & ya breathe it INTO the Bronchials.. THEN you can aspirate (choke) IN YOUR SLEEP.. I've had it SEVERE for many years, I wake up & hold my breath by instinct now, cause if i DON'T hold my breath, I will start COUGHING then CHOKING then the EMT'S have to be called, etc.. IF you've REFLUX TOO.. TRY NOT TO COUGH /CHOKE so the acid will settle, even inside the bronchials.. I always have Pepsi or Coke beside my bed at night, I know People say OH THAT IS BAD FOR YOU, (in so many ways) I already KNOW all that..but it has it's Pros & Cons.. I've found that drinking COLA helps push back the Stomach Acid with it's OWN Acid.. sort of an ACID WAR... Our Stomach acid level is right above battery Acid, the Strongest on the chart.. then.. stomach.. then it's Cola (I think) anyways, Im aware that Cola (My choice is Pepsi) has it's CONS about it but there are ALSO PROS.. & when it comes right down to certain things, a person must weigh the Pros & Cons.. Also you have to Decide IF the Benefits OUTWEIGH the RISKS.. & in MY case with as severe as the Reflux is.. YEP I shose ti use the Acid in cola to fight back down the Acid in my stomach... The Reflux BURNS lke FIRE in your throat & chest.. One thing Ive found to get rid of the TASTE & BURN faster s always keep some STRONG Cough Drops by your bed.. suck on one of those & it helps ALOT! .. Otherwise.. Remember to take your NEXIUM (it's the best) tho IT ALSO has Pros & cons but it IS the best for ME anyways, but take it AS DIRECTED..EVERYDAY! Don't allow the Acid pumps to get overactive again & end up with another LATE NIGHT Episode,.. other Aids.. >> Sleep on SEVERAL Pillows, Raise the head of the bed..Keep the Soda by your bed.. do NOT eat too close to bed time.. do NOT lay down after eating for at least a couple hours.. Keep the Cough Drops within reach & TRY TRY TRY NOT TO LET YOUR BODY START COUGHING or CHOKING (if you can help it) But REFLUX is NOT SIMPLE HEARTBURN!! .. It's a Disease that can Definitely cause ULCERS, & DEATH! ;/ SORRY if I RAMBLED, but just think of it as bein in "MEDICAL CLASS"!! -
DIGESTIVE HEALTH !! ;)
DIGESTIVE HEALTH !! ;)
Thursday, May 1, 2014
"PEOPLE CALLED SLIDERS" & "COMPLEX FOCAL SEIZURES" A "CONNECTION??"
Oh .. ya know how I've said 'I' was what's called a SLIDER type of Person??
One with an EXTREME amount of ELECTRICAL ENERGY goin on INSIDE our bodies & we can (& DO) blow up ANYTHING ELECTRICAL..From Lightbulbs, Streetlights, House-hold electrical stuff, like Micro-Waves, Heating pads, Blow Dryers, Flat irons, "TV", 'XBOX', "COMPUTERS", & ESP PHONES... (I've blown up MANY!)
Well, Aeryk's been askin me to play Bakugan with him on the XBOX or WII or whichever.. ANYWAYS.. I tried to put it OFF for as long as possible, Claimin 'I DON'T KNOW HOW' but he would always come back with, 'Don't worry, I'll teach you'..
& he was getting SAD so I gave in last night & #TRIED to play (I know NOTHING of HOW to play these games, nor do I really CARE to :/ I have a problem with my visual DEPTH Perception)but I said I'd TRY, anyway!..He asked WHICH Controller do YOU want? I said the #OLD one.. as that other one is BRAND NEW!! :/ He said NO You can play with the NEW one cause the older one sticks, I say.. WHY DOES THAT MATTER?? I cant play anyways.. I suck at it.. but I "HELD" the NEW ONE .. I DIDN'T PUSH #ANY BUTTONS AT ALL!!! .. then I gave it back & said 'NO NO I WANT THE OLD ONE'.. he said ok, then we tried to play & ..then, Guess what??.. Yep yep.. the #NEW ONE WAS ALREADY #BROKEN!!! I almost cried.. He kept trying to find OTHER reasons for it to have broke, even Jacki asked "ARE THE BATTERIES NEW?" he said "yeah I just put them in, I was already playing with it a little, so I KNOW they work".. I TRULY almost cried (well I DID cry in the bathroom) I feel aweful, Jax JUST bought that thing.. BUT in MY defense, I already SAID "you KNOW what happens when 'I' TOUCH Electrical things :(" .. He just kept pattin me on the back.. sayin It's ok.. don't cry, don't worry, we'll get another one.. (I FEEL LIKE SHXT!) I'll get him a New one but being like THIS is annoying .. Especially when it comes to breaking other people's things, or WHEN I'M DRIVING OTHER PEOPLE'S CARS, & I Mess Up their ELECTRICAL READINGS, LIKE all the DASHBOARD Lights come ON or Go OFF.. & The Speedometer NOW says you're Driving a ZILLION miles per hour! Or you have a FULL tank of Gas when it's ACTUALLY Empty!..Or More frightening.... WHEN I'M FLYING IN AN #AIRPLANE O_O.. (I had an #EXPERIENCE on one already!!) Or how about an #ELEVATOR?? Yeah kinda scary.. & OF COURSE THE EVER POPULAR (in MY case) WHEN IM IN THE #EMERGENCY_ROOM!!!! :/
There's 'ALOTTT' of Very #Important Electrical MEDICAL Equipment in the "Emergency Room" ya know, the ones that SAVE YOUR LIFE?? O_O
There are OTHERS like me they say.. the COOLEST PART (yes there is a POSITIVE side to EVERYTHING, even this) IS WHEN YOU LEARN TO #CONTROL IT!! HAHA ;)
The REASON I KNOW THIS IS #TRUE.. is Because of something that is physically WRONG with ME , medically speaking.. & YES it's Documented..!!
You've probably heard me Explain what they JUST Diagnosed me, recently, with #COMPLEX_FOCAL_SIEZURES - (Left-Side of the brain)
I KNEW I had this problem like 25-30yrs ago! I had BAD headaches back then & I had a #BRAIN_SCAN done back then.. They didn't find any reasons for the headaches, they weren't MIGRAINES, BUT they DID find something unusual.. They said They SAW that I had UNEXPLAINED SUDDEN #BURSTS OF #ELECTRICAL_BRAIN_ACTIVITY .. THEY HAD NEVER SEEN IT BEFORE, NOR COULD THEY GIVE ME A #NAME FOR IT.. So it was one of those times.. OH WELL we found THIS but.. it's not Cancer (that we know of) nor a Tumor so we will just leave it alone !? & they sent me on my way.. Basically Kicked me to the curb :/
But I''ve recently been having black outs.. short ones - & as long as Im around my kids, they KNOW to tap me & wake me up..(tho you can have them with your #Eyes_Open..) so I went to have ANOTHER #Brain_Scan (Remember approx 25 or so yrs LATER) Technology has come a LONG WAY since then ..I was lying on the table ..they were doin the scan & the next thing I know is the tech's tappin me on my shoulder tellin me I need to #WAKE_UP now & that the test is finished ! .. I was like HUUUH?? I fell asleep??? he asked "Do YOU REMEMBER #ANYTHING BEFORE YOU PASSED OUT??" I said "Welll.. since I DON'T remember PASSING OUT.. I'd say there's a GOOD CHANCE I WON'T REMEMBER WHAT WAS HAPPENING RIGHT BEFORE IT EITHER!" .. He took the electrobe cap off my head & said He would send the info over to Neurology.. I came home & right away, my Dr called & said "JUDY, You have "Complex Focal Seizures on the Left side of the Brain".. That's when you have BURSTS of ELECTRICAL BRAIN ACTIVITY, but they don't know WHY it does it, they want to do MORE tests. They DID say #NOT to DRIVE!!" .. I said "OHH!! (It's the EXACT SAME THING as when I was young.. only NOW they gave it a #NAME) ..
I haven't told them I already HAD a brainscan & they FOUND the SAME THING years ago.. because IF I DO.. they will just BLAME EVERYTHING ON THAT FACT & WON'T CONTINUE TO FIND OUT MORE ABOUT [#WHY IM PASSIN OUT]!!" So I'll wait til I get a BETTER, more in Depth, DETAILED answer first.. They DID say (& I agree) that I was LUCKY that I 'HAD A SEIZURE DURING THE TEST' So I will be going back to see Neuro probably Next week.. I Know they will order an MRI of the brain.. then they'll look for all kinds of things.. I won't just accept NO ANSWERS this time, because I already KNOW I have the SUDDEN BURSTS OF ELECTRICAL ACTIVITY .. & "THAT" is WHY WE #UNIQUE PEOPLE ARE CALLED " #SLIDERS "..
AS FOR #ME.. I KNOW 'IM' LISTED AS A #RADIATION_RISK IN MY MEDCAL FILE!!
That's from ALL THE #HUNDREDS of CTScans & Xrays through the years.. which builds up even MORE ELECTRICAL ENERGY inside MY body! (Along with Brain Cancer :/ ) (Hence the concern of these Seizures!!) check out THESE #STATS >> "#ONE" CT SCAN =
**********>>>
An international study that was performed followed children who has CT scans for a 23 year period. The children who had these scans performed were THREE times as likely to develop a brain cancer and FOUR times as likely to develop a leukemia than those children who did NOT have any CT scans performed.
(I've had the Scans SINCE I was a kid! til #NOW!!)
#Scary_Statistics.>>
Sometimes there is no option and an x-ray or CT scan MUST be performed in order to rule out a life threatening condition. In those cases, where you are sure you have no other choices, the benefit far outweighs the risk. When the scan is an option, one must think long and hard before exposing yourself to that amount of radiation. Ask your doctor! Speak up! Can any other test be performed to diagnose me? Is this CT scan absolutely necessary for my health?
Studies reveal that the amount of radiation exposure from ONE CT scan is equal to:
100-250 chest x-rays
1,400 dental x-rays
240 Five Hour flights
70,000 airport scans
19 years of smoking a pack of cigarettes a day
NOW....if THAT information does not make you think...I don't know what will.
<<<<<*********
SO "YES" IT DEFINITELY MAKES ME "THINK".. Especially since it pertains to ME & MY LIFE! .. IT'S TOUGH ENOUGH BEING HIT WITH THESE DISEASES, SOME THAT I'VE "NOT" MENTIONED ARE EVEN "WORSE".. MORE ALONG THE "TERMINAL" LINE...& As I've said, We won't know WHAT these Next tests say..Until the results come in. These STATS are in part (Im Sure) to the fact that 'IM' one of those KNOWN as a "SLIDER".. It's NOT 'ONLY' Because of these stats, since I've had the STRANGE affect on ELECTRICAL EQUIPMENT..As far back as I can Remember! ~ People have ALWAYS thought I was "DIFFERENT" ..& I'm the first one to say I "AM DIFFERENT"!
Being 'DIFFERENT' is actually FUN.. MOST OF THE TIME.. but when I end up "BREAKING" something of someone elses.. especially a Toy or a part of the Lil Man's Electronics & Games.. it makes me feel Really Bad & Very Sad.. So I go out of my way NOW to avoid ANY contact with as many Electrical Devices as possible UNLESS they belong to ME.. So.. I am praying that this NEXT battery of Tests turn out OK..
I am WORKING ON "ACCEPTING" WHATEVER "GOD" HAS IN HIS PLAN.. I WILL TRY TO BE AS "STRONG" AS I CAN..ESPECIALLY FOR MY FAMILY.. & I WILL SET THE BEST "EXAMPLES" I CAN IN SUCH A TOUGH SITUATION.. PRACTICE EXERCISING MY #FAITH! .. THAT & "PRAY FOR THE BEST" <3
IF "YOU" ARE A FELLOW "SLIDER" .. HAVE "FUN" WITH IT!! .. BUT ALSO REMEMBER IT'S VERY "REAL".. IT CAN CAUSE ALOT OF DANGEROUS SITUATIONS YES, MANY PEOPLE ARE READY TO CALL YOU A CRAZY 'LUNATIC' BUT YOU "KNOW" ..AS WELL AS 'I' DO, THAT IT IS VERY REAL.. & NO MATTER HOW MANY NAMES YOU'RE CALLED.. NO MATTER HOW MANY HURTFUL WORDS THEY THROW AT YOU.. 'THINKING' THEY'VE MADE YOU FEEL TERRIBLE... JUST REMEMBER THIS.. REMEMBER TO CALL FOR "HELP"... DOESN'T MATTER "WHOM" YOU CALL .. JUST REMEMBER TO ..ASK "THEM" IF YOU CAN ...
"BORROW 'THEIR' PHONE!!" .. MAKE SURE YOU HOLD IT TIGHTLY LOLOLOLOL
THEN VERY POLITELY SAY..THANKS FOR LOANING ME YOUR "NICE NEW PHONE"
HAHAHAH & WALK AWAY.. STICKS N STONES MY FRIEND..STICKS N STONES!! <3
"SLIDERS" ARE AWESOME.. KINDA LIKE AN EXTERESTRIAL CLUB THAT NOT
"JUST ANYONE" CAN BE "ACCEPTED" TO!! LOL ...
THE "ET"CLUB... THE "ELECTRO TECHNO" CLUB!!! .. <3 <3 <3
SIGNING OFF FOR NOW.. HOPE I'VE PASSED ON SOME ACTUAL KNOWLEDGE ..
THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE & LISTENING TO ME "RAMBLE" LOL ;)
UNTIL NEXT TIME.. TAKE CARE...
PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK ANY QUESTIONS ..
THESE ARE SOME LINKS TO "MORE INFO" ...
SINCERELY....
THE ~MAGICK_SCORPIO~
"SLIDERS"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Street_light_interference_phenomenon
"SLIDERS"
http://psychicwomenwarriors.blogspot.com/2009/06/sliders-people-who-cause-strange.html
"COMPLEX FOCAL SEIZURES"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Partial_seizure
"TRIGGERS FOR COMPLEX FOCAL SEIZURES"
#1 MISSED OR CHANGED MEDICATION
#2 SLEEP DEPRIVATION
#3 HORMONES -
(IMBALANCE, PREGNANCY, MENSTRUATION, MENPAUSE)
#4 DRUG & ALCOHOL
(GOING THROUGH WITHDRAWLS OF THESE)
#5 EXTREME EMOTIONAL STRESS
(SEIZURES OCCUR WHEN AN INDIVIDUAL IS UNDER LARGE AMOUNTS OF WORRY, ANXIETY, OR EVEN ANGER)
#6 LOW BLOOD SUGAR
(HYPOGLYCEMIA)
One with an EXTREME amount of ELECTRICAL ENERGY goin on INSIDE our bodies & we can (& DO) blow up ANYTHING ELECTRICAL..From Lightbulbs, Streetlights, House-hold electrical stuff, like Micro-Waves, Heating pads, Blow Dryers, Flat irons, "TV", 'XBOX', "COMPUTERS", & ESP PHONES... (I've blown up MANY!)
Well, Aeryk's been askin me to play Bakugan with him on the XBOX or WII or whichever.. ANYWAYS.. I tried to put it OFF for as long as possible, Claimin 'I DON'T KNOW HOW' but he would always come back with, 'Don't worry, I'll teach you'..
& he was getting SAD so I gave in last night & #TRIED to play (I know NOTHING of HOW to play these games, nor do I really CARE to :/ I have a problem with my visual DEPTH Perception)but I said I'd TRY, anyway!..He asked WHICH Controller do YOU want? I said the #OLD one.. as that other one is BRAND NEW!! :/ He said NO You can play with the NEW one cause the older one sticks, I say.. WHY DOES THAT MATTER?? I cant play anyways.. I suck at it.. but I "HELD" the NEW ONE .. I DIDN'T PUSH #ANY BUTTONS AT ALL!!! .. then I gave it back & said 'NO NO I WANT THE OLD ONE'.. he said ok, then we tried to play & ..then, Guess what??.. Yep yep.. the #NEW ONE WAS ALREADY #BROKEN!!! I almost cried.. He kept trying to find OTHER reasons for it to have broke, even Jacki asked "ARE THE BATTERIES NEW?" he said "yeah I just put them in, I was already playing with it a little, so I KNOW they work".. I TRULY almost cried (well I DID cry in the bathroom) I feel aweful, Jax JUST bought that thing.. BUT in MY defense, I already SAID "you KNOW what happens when 'I' TOUCH Electrical things :(" .. He just kept pattin me on the back.. sayin It's ok.. don't cry, don't worry, we'll get another one.. (I FEEL LIKE SHXT!) I'll get him a New one but being like THIS is annoying .. Especially when it comes to breaking other people's things, or WHEN I'M DRIVING OTHER PEOPLE'S CARS, & I Mess Up their ELECTRICAL READINGS, LIKE all the DASHBOARD Lights come ON or Go OFF.. & The Speedometer NOW says you're Driving a ZILLION miles per hour! Or you have a FULL tank of Gas when it's ACTUALLY Empty!..Or More frightening.... WHEN I'M FLYING IN AN #AIRPLANE O_O.. (I had an #EXPERIENCE on one already!!) Or how about an #ELEVATOR?? Yeah kinda scary.. & OF COURSE THE EVER POPULAR (in MY case) WHEN IM IN THE #EMERGENCY_ROOM!!!! :/
There's 'ALOTTT' of Very #Important Electrical MEDICAL Equipment in the "Emergency Room" ya know, the ones that SAVE YOUR LIFE?? O_O
There are OTHERS like me they say.. the COOLEST PART (yes there is a POSITIVE side to EVERYTHING, even this) IS WHEN YOU LEARN TO #CONTROL IT!! HAHA ;)
The REASON I KNOW THIS IS #TRUE.. is Because of something that is physically WRONG with ME , medically speaking.. & YES it's Documented..!!
You've probably heard me Explain what they JUST Diagnosed me, recently, with #COMPLEX_FOCAL_SIEZURES - (Left-Side of the brain)
I KNEW I had this problem like 25-30yrs ago! I had BAD headaches back then & I had a #BRAIN_SCAN done back then.. They didn't find any reasons for the headaches, they weren't MIGRAINES, BUT they DID find something unusual.. They said They SAW that I had UNEXPLAINED SUDDEN #BURSTS OF #ELECTRICAL_BRAIN_ACTIVITY .. THEY HAD NEVER SEEN IT BEFORE, NOR COULD THEY GIVE ME A #NAME FOR IT.. So it was one of those times.. OH WELL we found THIS but.. it's not Cancer (that we know of) nor a Tumor so we will just leave it alone !? & they sent me on my way.. Basically Kicked me to the curb :/
But I''ve recently been having black outs.. short ones - & as long as Im around my kids, they KNOW to tap me & wake me up..(tho you can have them with your #Eyes_Open..) so I went to have ANOTHER #Brain_Scan (Remember approx 25 or so yrs LATER) Technology has come a LONG WAY since then ..I was lying on the table ..they were doin the scan & the next thing I know is the tech's tappin me on my shoulder tellin me I need to #WAKE_UP now & that the test is finished ! .. I was like HUUUH?? I fell asleep??? he asked "Do YOU REMEMBER #ANYTHING BEFORE YOU PASSED OUT??" I said "Welll.. since I DON'T remember PASSING OUT.. I'd say there's a GOOD CHANCE I WON'T REMEMBER WHAT WAS HAPPENING RIGHT BEFORE IT EITHER!" .. He took the electrobe cap off my head & said He would send the info over to Neurology.. I came home & right away, my Dr called & said "JUDY, You have "Complex Focal Seizures on the Left side of the Brain".. That's when you have BURSTS of ELECTRICAL BRAIN ACTIVITY, but they don't know WHY it does it, they want to do MORE tests. They DID say #NOT to DRIVE!!" .. I said "OHH!! (It's the EXACT SAME THING as when I was young.. only NOW they gave it a #NAME) ..
I haven't told them I already HAD a brainscan & they FOUND the SAME THING years ago.. because IF I DO.. they will just BLAME EVERYTHING ON THAT FACT & WON'T CONTINUE TO FIND OUT MORE ABOUT [#WHY IM PASSIN OUT]!!" So I'll wait til I get a BETTER, more in Depth, DETAILED answer first.. They DID say (& I agree) that I was LUCKY that I 'HAD A SEIZURE DURING THE TEST' So I will be going back to see Neuro probably Next week.. I Know they will order an MRI of the brain.. then they'll look for all kinds of things.. I won't just accept NO ANSWERS this time, because I already KNOW I have the SUDDEN BURSTS OF ELECTRICAL ACTIVITY .. & "THAT" is WHY WE #UNIQUE PEOPLE ARE CALLED " #SLIDERS "..
AS FOR #ME.. I KNOW 'IM' LISTED AS A #RADIATION_RISK IN MY MEDCAL FILE!!
That's from ALL THE #HUNDREDS of CTScans & Xrays through the years.. which builds up even MORE ELECTRICAL ENERGY inside MY body! (Along with Brain Cancer :/ ) (Hence the concern of these Seizures!!) check out THESE #STATS >> "#ONE" CT SCAN =
**********>>>
An international study that was performed followed children who has CT scans for a 23 year period. The children who had these scans performed were THREE times as likely to develop a brain cancer and FOUR times as likely to develop a leukemia than those children who did NOT have any CT scans performed.
(I've had the Scans SINCE I was a kid! til #NOW!!)
#Scary_Statistics.>>
Sometimes there is no option and an x-ray or CT scan MUST be performed in order to rule out a life threatening condition. In those cases, where you are sure you have no other choices, the benefit far outweighs the risk. When the scan is an option, one must think long and hard before exposing yourself to that amount of radiation. Ask your doctor! Speak up! Can any other test be performed to diagnose me? Is this CT scan absolutely necessary for my health?
Studies reveal that the amount of radiation exposure from ONE CT scan is equal to:
100-250 chest x-rays
1,400 dental x-rays
240 Five Hour flights
70,000 airport scans
19 years of smoking a pack of cigarettes a day
NOW....if THAT information does not make you think...I don't know what will.
<<<<<*********
SO "YES" IT DEFINITELY MAKES ME "THINK".. Especially since it pertains to ME & MY LIFE! .. IT'S TOUGH ENOUGH BEING HIT WITH THESE DISEASES, SOME THAT I'VE "NOT" MENTIONED ARE EVEN "WORSE".. MORE ALONG THE "TERMINAL" LINE...& As I've said, We won't know WHAT these Next tests say..Until the results come in. These STATS are in part (Im Sure) to the fact that 'IM' one of those KNOWN as a "SLIDER".. It's NOT 'ONLY' Because of these stats, since I've had the STRANGE affect on ELECTRICAL EQUIPMENT..As far back as I can Remember! ~ People have ALWAYS thought I was "DIFFERENT" ..& I'm the first one to say I "AM DIFFERENT"!
Being 'DIFFERENT' is actually FUN.. MOST OF THE TIME.. but when I end up "BREAKING" something of someone elses.. especially a Toy or a part of the Lil Man's Electronics & Games.. it makes me feel Really Bad & Very Sad.. So I go out of my way NOW to avoid ANY contact with as many Electrical Devices as possible UNLESS they belong to ME.. So.. I am praying that this NEXT battery of Tests turn out OK..
I am WORKING ON "ACCEPTING" WHATEVER "GOD" HAS IN HIS PLAN.. I WILL TRY TO BE AS "STRONG" AS I CAN..ESPECIALLY FOR MY FAMILY.. & I WILL SET THE BEST "EXAMPLES" I CAN IN SUCH A TOUGH SITUATION.. PRACTICE EXERCISING MY #FAITH! .. THAT & "PRAY FOR THE BEST" <3
IF "YOU" ARE A FELLOW "SLIDER" .. HAVE "FUN" WITH IT!! .. BUT ALSO REMEMBER IT'S VERY "REAL".. IT CAN CAUSE ALOT OF DANGEROUS SITUATIONS YES, MANY PEOPLE ARE READY TO CALL YOU A CRAZY 'LUNATIC' BUT YOU "KNOW" ..AS WELL AS 'I' DO, THAT IT IS VERY REAL.. & NO MATTER HOW MANY NAMES YOU'RE CALLED.. NO MATTER HOW MANY HURTFUL WORDS THEY THROW AT YOU.. 'THINKING' THEY'VE MADE YOU FEEL TERRIBLE... JUST REMEMBER THIS.. REMEMBER TO CALL FOR "HELP"... DOESN'T MATTER "WHOM" YOU CALL .. JUST REMEMBER TO ..ASK "THEM" IF YOU CAN ...
"BORROW 'THEIR' PHONE!!" .. MAKE SURE YOU HOLD IT TIGHTLY LOLOLOLOL
THEN VERY POLITELY SAY..THANKS FOR LOANING ME YOUR "NICE NEW PHONE"
HAHAHAH & WALK AWAY.. STICKS N STONES MY FRIEND..STICKS N STONES!! <3
"SLIDERS" ARE AWESOME.. KINDA LIKE AN EXTERESTRIAL CLUB THAT NOT
"JUST ANYONE" CAN BE "ACCEPTED" TO!! LOL ...
THE "ET"CLUB... THE "ELECTRO TECHNO" CLUB!!! .. <3 <3 <3
SIGNING OFF FOR NOW.. HOPE I'VE PASSED ON SOME ACTUAL KNOWLEDGE ..
THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE & LISTENING TO ME "RAMBLE" LOL ;)
UNTIL NEXT TIME.. TAKE CARE...
PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK ANY QUESTIONS ..
THESE ARE SOME LINKS TO "MORE INFO" ...
SINCERELY....
THE ~MAGICK_SCORPIO~
"SLIDERS"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Street_light_interference_phenomenon
"SLIDERS"
http://psychicwomenwarriors.blogspot.com/2009/06/sliders-people-who-cause-strange.html
"COMPLEX FOCAL SEIZURES"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Partial_seizure
"TRIGGERS FOR COMPLEX FOCAL SEIZURES"
#1 MISSED OR CHANGED MEDICATION
#2 SLEEP DEPRIVATION
#3 HORMONES -
(IMBALANCE, PREGNANCY, MENSTRUATION, MENPAUSE)
#4 DRUG & ALCOHOL
(GOING THROUGH WITHDRAWLS OF THESE)
#5 EXTREME EMOTIONAL STRESS
(SEIZURES OCCUR WHEN AN INDIVIDUAL IS UNDER LARGE AMOUNTS OF WORRY, ANXIETY, OR EVEN ANGER)
#6 LOW BLOOD SUGAR
(HYPOGLYCEMIA)
#7 BRIGHT LIGHTS
(BRIGHT OR BLINKING LIGHTS e.g. THEATERS, GAME SYSTEMS OR COMPUTERS)
"WHY YOU SHOULD SERIOUSLY THINK TWICE BEFORE GETTING A CT-SCAN
http://southbrunswick.patch.com/groups/corine-mogeniss-blog/p/bp--why-you-should-seriously-think-twice-before-getti62b0c98eab
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